When was the last time you cried and why?

[WilmaHun]

Last night after a panic attack. They were under control at one point but they’re becoming more frequent at the minute

 

[Queen of the Thames]

I’ve been crying almost everyday for almost 2 months now, I don’t even recognise myself anymore.

 

[sleepingsatellite]

oof, it’s a miracle i don’t cry everyday. pretty sure that i have depression, and i’m doing my very best to protect my kids from it (within reason, a robotic all singing all dancing parent is not the ideal).

the last few years have been truly awful with bereavements and the pandemic. i’m so mad at the world. my work for pushing me too hard and too far. people for showing who they truly are and shattering all my illusions so i can barely stand to be around them. it’s like i’m done giving people another chance and being the ‘bigger person’, if they show nastiness now i’d rather not spend any time in their company.

i know i need to move past the anger and embrace the amazing life i have with my family, but it’s such a struggle. right now i’m hanging in there and hoping for it to lift.

 

[Boredofthegram]

Friday after dropping my son to his dads I cried most of the 90 mile drive home alone as I still hate the fact we aren’t one happy family (the split was my decision and for the best but still hurts).

 

[candyland_]

My lovely boyfriend, who I have had the best relationship of my life with, who has always treated me with respect and been absolutely delighted with me (and the feeling is mutual), consistent and affectionate, has withdrawn and just stopped talking to me. Don't live together. Said he needed "a break" by text. Then changed his relationship status on Facebook like a fucking teenager, and someone else had to tell me because I don't really use it. Utterly out of the blue, and has since ignored me. I've tried to speak to him (kindly and supportively because I know things are getting on top of him lately and I'd do anything for him) but nothing. It feels like I won't hear ever from him again.

I know his abusive ex wife probably has something to do with it and using his kids against him but I am heartbroken. I was abandoned by both parents as a kid so he knows people just disappearing on me is a major issue for me and its like he's a stranger being vindictive. If he'd wanted to end it he could have talked to me, but this is horrifying. He's done this just after we went away with his friends, so now I get to feel humiliated in front of them too.

My last relationships were abusive and I thought I'd finally met a diamond. I haven't trusted anyone for years and now the person I trust this does this to me. Just the other day he was telling me I'm #1 and how proud he is to be with me. My friends are all baffled, we were that gross couple who were totally mad about each other, but once again I've been proven to be disposable, less than nothing. I'm not sure how someone recovers from this.

Oh I’m sorry to hear this. Tell him you will be there when or if he is ready to talk and then leave it at that. It’s all you can really do. If you bombard them it only makes things worse but I do think he will contact you eventually - they always do but for now respect that he wants a break and live your life.

I have been through something similar and it ended up being the hardest time of my life and it made me ill. Sounds cliche but if someone wants to walk out of your life - let them. Please look after yourself.

 

[candyland_]

Sobbed in my kitchen earlier. I just want to be happy.

 

[Niamhm]

I cried today, and the past few weeks as I unfortunately had a miscarriage. The loss was awful but constant internal scans and blood tests as they suspected ectopic just made it worse. Went to hospital today for a methotrexate injection but thankfully after another scan with a specialist doc she located it so I didn't have to have it. I just cried out of relief and grateful I can finally start to heal and move on x

 

[strawb]

I know this will come across as a pity party, but just now. Today is my birthday and so far only 2 out of 3 kids have wished me a happy birthday plus my husband(kids are all over 10yrs old and everyone is home today). I've had a bottle of expensive liqueur from them all which wasn't even wrapped and is something I would never drink. No cards at all and 2 texts/WhatsApp messages from my relatives, who live within 15mins of me. I've done the food shopping, washed up, done 3 loads of washing/drying and put it all away and cleaned the toilet/bathroom.
I like to make others feel special on their birthdays and like to pick cards out which show I've thought of them. Oh and I bought a small bouquet of pink roses reduced to £1.60 earlier to cheer myself up.

it's not a pity party, i totally get you. i put so much effort into doing things for people on their special days and it hurts when they don't do it back. your feelings are valid! also, HAPPY BIRTHDAY of course i hope the roses cheered you up, put your feet up now & pour yourself a drink!

 

[Bubbledoggyyeah]

Just now seeing someone post they’re 31 and trying for another baby and can’t imagine doing it much later. I’m 31, no baby and nowhere near in a place to be trying yet. I want one but unsure if I’m with the right person and I want to be in a better place with my career and finances. It’s tough.

 

[under the ivy]

About an hour ago. I’ve got too much going on in my life.

 

[easyliketuesdayafternoon]

I cried today. We had to say goodbye to our family dog - the sweetest girl.

 

[toetoetoe88]

I had a little happy cry - after nonsense at my current job my old one reached out and asked if I wanted to go back. I only left there due to the fact that they took a while to make me an offer (temping to perm) when I'd accepted a new one. They're fine with no reference from my current place and want me to come in next Tuesday. It's also a job I liked doing and the hourly pay is really good so it was a huge relief after a few weeks of feeling really awful.

Also went in today to drop off my equipment, my notice and just walked out. Freeeeedooooooooom

 

[bee84]

On Saturday, sad over my son's dad.. Thought I was over us not being friends anymore, I'm clearly not

 

[Apple In My Pie]

Last night. I feel so alone.

 

[nothanksbabes]

Constantly. My previously lovely partner essentially ghosted me and won't talk to me, so I feel absolutely worthless. I'm trying to work from home through a panic attack while my bathroom is being renovated which has taken, so far, 18 days with no shower. My neighbour's autistic son has been crying and howling for four solid hours through the wall and I can't say anything because it's not his fault but I can't tolerate another minute of this day.

 

[BelleAmie]

I cried today at work because I was stressed and I feel like nobody cares

 

[Affiliatedlink]

I cry almost every day at the moment. Very out of character for me and I do it mostly in private as my husband hates me crying and isn’t too sympathetic. I’m menopausal anyway, but I’ve also lost my job I loved after 20+ years and haven’t worked now since lockdown even though I was furloughed for a few months. I’m finding it difficult to get a job, I was very well paid and I’m horrified at the pay of most jobs and realise I will never earn what I did previous, I worry about paying the mortgage in a few months time. I’ve had one interview for a job I don’t want (not heard yet) but it was a horrendous interview for a shit job, I’ve not had an nterview for over 27 years and I was terrible! I sat in my car after and cried like a baby! This fucking coronavirus has made me depressed and anxious and I can now join the mental health club!!

 

[LittleMy]

This morning. This time of year is just hard and it hasn’t been an easy year in general.

 

[sweetbabymango]

Last night. I feel so incredibly lonely on a daily basis especially at work. I really miss my old work place but mostly my colleagues. I never really had a large group of friends growing up and when I started working there, I became good friends with a lot of colleagues and really close with 2 who worked in the same department as me. We no longer keep in touch as much as we used to when I had just left so it's not an everyday thing like it was back then. I could probably keep my phone turned off these days and no one would notice. I loved being part of a group and feeling cared for. The older I get, the harder it is to grow and maintain good friendships. They were like family to me and I miss having people who actually gave two shits about me unlike those who are supposed to. It's silly to admit how much I envy their close bond. I cannot be more lonely, unhappy, depressed, anxious about the future and angry at how much crap I've dealt with growing up and still am today. I simply cannot seem to catch a break or experience long periods of happiness where no major changes or headaches take place.

 

[CherryBakewell]

At 3.45 when my son woke up he’s been waking up around 4am for the last 6 weeks and it’s really getting difficult. My husband is away just now so I’m on my own and I’m just knackered all the time. I was so annoyed this morning and then cried because I felt guilty.