Its the worst isn't it, wanting to get excited and then it seems its even more disappointing when you feel like why did I even get excited
I think I always look negative on threads because I always say it won't happen. I do this to protect myself. I still obviously hope. But I feel horrific when AF comes and getting excited would make me feel even worse when i get the no again. This time with being late I still said it won't happen, I kept telling myself, but I obviously had that feeling inside me that I couldn't help of excitement creeping in, sadly I was right though.
I am also glad I never used the test, that would have made me worse. On the day AF comes I just feel like I want to give up, because I feel like my heart is physically hurting and after this long, will it ever happen. I can't imagine it.
I feel bad for putting this sadness on here but I think you will all understand.
Tommorow will be a new day though.
Another friend just told me she's pregnant.. I'm so happy for her, just feeling sad for me. Feel ridiculous saying it out loud so don't have anyone else to talk to about it. Grateful for this group
This is normal. It's hard because you are happy for them but it's hurts for you. You don't want their baby, you want your own.
I have done the same, I have plastered on my best smile and wrote a big excited message, then cried my eyes out at home. I felt horribly guilty. But I wasn't upset at their news, I was upset at why I can't seem to get my own. When will I get my happy news to tell people?!
We understand you here x