TTC #3

[fishsticks]

I used quite a lot I think, did you use the syringe thing? As I put the most amount you could in the syringe

The cup thing I just felt like I may as well try, it can’t really do any harm @Louk mentioning it earlier in the thread is what pushed me to try it!

Yeah I did! Was very bizarre at first! Then I had fears I'd drowned the swimmies hmmm I was only putting in to the 3 line I think! Maybe I didn't drown them enough.

The cup sounds like a good idea if I'm honest. I alwaaaaays try to fall asleep and not move but *tmi* I hate waking up in the middle of the night bcus my thighs feels sticky and wet. So this is definitely a solution.

Not sure how attractive my husbands going to find me, but who cares.

My husbands twin brother (evil twin I'll add) is getting married in Feb and I'm just so hoping I'm pregnant before then so I can escape early or not go at all...!

 

[CinnamonBun]

Hi ladies, I’ve been a lurker for a bit now and finally posting. We’re in cycle 9 of trying now (I know some people have it worse, sorry ). Most people’s children in my family have been ‘happy accidents’, so we’ve just kept we’re TTC between my OH and I. We get married soon and I know the asking of when we’ll have children will be increased. Just feels like it won’t ever happen.

Just want to thank you ladies for opening up, although I’ve not commented before your posts have honestly helped massively. Sending love to you all. Xx

 

[calmyourritas]

Told myself I wouldn’t get obsessed with pissing on sticks again yet here I am

 

[Marymoo13]

If it's been 3 years, you don't say how old you are, but have you thought of asking for proper TTC help? I've personally chosen against it, despite my age (I'm also a needle wuss) would IVF or something give you hope or something to focus on? Or are you just going to try a cup full of preseed like the rest of us?


I hope so

I’m in my 20’s so thankfully time should be on my side. I have had doc appointment in recent months as my period was really out of whack but they couldn’t find any reason why.
admittedly I am overweight so my local sub-fertility department at hospital won’t see me until I lose weight (which I am - it’s just taking forever )
Ironically all of the weight I’ve gained has been since the MC, 2019 I really went down a dark hole about it all, I don’t want to drag the thread down as overall I am doing so much better now but weeks like this still affect me.

but yep, pre-seed is on route from Amazon along with a cup due to arrive on Thursday… don’t think they’ll get much use that day though

 

[Clojo92]

AF arrived for me today 3 days later than predicted. Just when I decided that maybe there was a chance! I have my HSG results on Monday so fingers crossed I get some good news then.

 

[Sallycinnamon_]

Ahh keep us updated! Kinda wish I hadn't tested now. I've got symptoms and obvs getting my hopes up, but not sure if the headaches and nausea are just nerves.

Hoping AF stays away for us all!

Mine was af . 13 months I’m just devastated

 

[CNK]

I have the opposite I sleep so well but have vivid dreams! Amazing how women are all so different isn’t it

I would try and avoid testing until AF is late or at least give it another few days if you can. But if it makes you feel better to test, go for it! You aren’t out until AF shows up though 🤍 xx

just realised I’m CEO of not taking my own advice having tested at 6dpo yesterday

Thanks, I'll hold out til the weekend anyway
Just havin a little cry here cos my sis in law rang there to say she is pregnant, delighted for her but just want it to be me as well

 

[DiscoBiscuit]

I'm currently 9dpo on month 5 of trying.

My only symptom so far is being in a foul mood, but that might be down to being on holiday in a caravan with a husband, a 5 year old and 2 naughty dogs

When I was packing I decided not to bring my stash of cheapy tests, stupidly thinking I wouldn't even think about testing. WRONG! It's all I can think about, even though my sensible side keeps trying to remind me that I probably wouldn’t get a result this early anyway.

I was talking to my Husband last night about how they put the fear of God into us at school, that we would get pregnant just from looking at a boy. Turns out the reality is a bit different eh?

 

[bepobee]

I had my second Pfizer vaccine on the day I got my LH peak this month and I got BFP this morning. Only issue was we almost didn't get to DTD that weekend as OH didn't feel well from the vaccine, but we pushed through

Thanks everyone for the support on this thread. I am so surprised this has happened so soon but trying not to get excited in case it doesn't work out again. Best of luck to everyone x

 

[MrsLucas]

I posted on here last week thinking I could be pregnant. I am pregnant but I don’t think it’s going to stick I’m having the worst stomach pains . I’ve had a miscarriage before and the pains are exactly the same. I thought about calling Epu but I had such a terrible experience the last time I was there. I haven’t told anyone not even my oh because he’s been working away.

 

[xoxo GG]

I’m just feeling so down today.

Spoiler: Sad chat

I’ve been crying on and off and feel like I can’t stop. I should be 20 weeks today and it should be so happy and exciting to be halfway and it’s just shit. I don’t even know why I’m posting this, I just need to say it to someone. I just can’t fathom how life can be so cruel. I know I’m never going to forget it, but I need someone to tell me the pain won’t last forever and there will be a day where my heart won’t hurt quite so bad

I can’t lie to you and say it goes away. Because four years on from losing our daughter, I’m still utterly in the shit tunnel of grief and I still have days where it consumes my entire being. Some days what I want to do, and what my grief will allow me to do are two completely different things. But I will say this. I have better days now. I have more good days than bad days. I even probably have more good weeks than bad weeks. The pain doesn’t go away. I wish I could say it did, I wish I could take it from you. But it will always be there, just some days will feel a little more raw than others. I found the ‘firsts’ were the worst. I had to accept that I was sat under a storm cloud, that no amount of positivity could drag me out of it, but accept that. I had to learn to accept that how I felt was valid.

I wish I could tell you a positive quote that would make it feel better. But I know it probably wouldn’t. What you have experienced is utterly fucking shit and I am so sorry it has happened to you. It must still be very raw, your future has changed, everything you hoped and dreamed for has faded away. But the sun will creep in. Just maybe not yet.

 

[JLXRD]

9dpo and I cracked and tested on a cheapy internet strip negative of course. I know it’s early but I’m going to assume I’m not pregnant now as I only have a 12 day LP.

I don’t feel too bad for doing so as every time I buy a pack of 50 opks I get 20 hcg tests with it so I now have about 60 cheapy internet strip hcg tests! Just a poas addict now apparently

 

[Sallycinnamon_]

Hi everyone,

As expected my period is starting. I saw a little bit when I last went to the toilet. So I know what I'll see when I next go obviously. Ridiculously I have been holding it in as I just don't want to see it. I don't know why, I knew it would come, I had no doubt, but i know how I'm going to feel still and I'm on the verge of tears already.
Anyone else do silly things like this? I've literally seen a bit of blood, I don't know why Im still hiding from it.
I guess the awful fact that it really isn't happening, so much so I can't even imagine it anymore.
So very soon I know I'll officially be cycle 20.

Never had a hint of anything in those 20 long cycles. Will I ever get to see two lines? My heart is hurting that it could mean i actually may not. All this joy I see other people experience at falling pregnant, an amazing surprise, it happening exactly as planned. There is no joy in TTC. All I know from wanting to be a mum so much is the pain now.

My heart is hurting. This journey is so very hard.

Sorry for bringing the thread down

Please don’t apologise, you are not bringing the thread down. Ttc is full of ups and downs and you can say what you like in here, it’s a safe space xx

I’ve had a rough couple of days. I thought I was pregnant, for the first time in 13 months thought I could actually be pregnant. I got a solid peak 9 days ago, had some slight spotting at 5dpo, nausea kicked in, increase in ew/creamy cm, did an opk due to the ewcm and I had raised LH. Flipped between accepting this as a second attempt at ovulation then to pregnancy due to raised LH levels and how nauseous I was feeling. But then of course, opks turned to low to confirm it was infact a failed attempt the first time and now my body is trying again.
I know this is common and I’ve had false surges before, but never have I reached a peak reading that didn’t amount to anything.
It was a real kick in the teeth. My heart hurts. Never have I felt so close. To the point I laid awake thinking how I’d tell me partner the next day.

Even more frustrating, I was so happy to be ovulating at a reasonable time, I thought my body was finally getting somewhere and regulating. The long cycles are making the whole ttc so much more painful. So I’m now starting the tww all over again.

 

[JLXRD]

6dpo and have started the symptom spotting , I swear up until about 6/7dpo I am chilled and then I suddenly go nuts and analysing every tiny thing.

The only difference I’m noticing this month is that my boobs are not hurting, which is nice because I seem to use this as the main thing to convince myself I might be pregnant the last 2 months. But now I’m like omg my boobs aren’t hurting …I must be pregnant.

Basically whatever happens, I will convince myself I might be pregnant whilst deep down knowing I’m not and thinking I never will be. All the emotions.

 

[JLXRD]

Love some of these comments.

I actually HATE the fertile week now
I think I even dread it a little.
The pressure, being knackered and just the fact you HAVE to. Then the fact you do all of it knowing it probably won't even happen!

Someone was like oh I'd love that, sex all the time.
Yeah you try having to do it all week even when you don't wanna for 20 cycles and it never even happening not what it seems after that long!

My husband I went into our TTC journey like ‘we won’t track anything, we will just have sex every day’

I look back at that now and find it hilarious. We quit after 11 days and did SMEP. Not sure how I was quite that naive having sex because you have to is very different to because you want to!

 

[Honeybeetea]

Nice there’s a few of us at similar cycle stages! Feels less lonely knowing there’s strangers on the internet that know exactly how you’re feeling 🤍 xx

 

[Cooksie]

I’m a few months into actually trying, not avoiding, and literally nothing so far not even a symptom of hope. I’m due my period on Monday which is also my birthday. I’m trying not to get my hopes up but I just know my birthday will be crap if I do come on. I know it’s silly but dreading it now.

My partner annoyingly told my uncle and aunt we are TTC when he’d had a drink and now I feel this crazy pressure that if I’m not by the time we see them again at Christmas it will just be another disappointment and for other people too.

I don’t really know where I’m going with this I just needed to type it out really!

 

[Mel17]

Thank you so much to everyone for the congratulations! This thread has been amazing! And I really hope you all get your BFP’s soon xxxx

 

[annabananaw10]

I might join this thread - I’ve been lurking for a while as I waited to finish up on the pill and this looks like it’s one of the most welcoming and friendly TTC chats I’ve seen (some forums are a bit scary, at least for people just starting TTC).

I am on cycle 1, 4DPO, am 33 and I have diagnosed endometriosis stage 2. I have been advised to start testing for ovulation and temping etc initially my first cycle was just meant to be me learning how to do it etc then I got very positive OPKs and my BBT shot up so we decided let’s just start trying but now I’m in the TWW and as much as I tell myself I shouldn’t be disappointed if I get a BFN next week, I know I will be and start panicking.

I am struggling a lot with the hormone fluctuations and my endo has flared up during ovulation and currently (I have bad nausea which I know is just the progesterone) and I can’t take any of the anti inflammatories I normally have

Anyone who went off the pill - do the fluctuations get better? I don’t think this happened the last time I was off the pill in my mid 20s

 

[Gizmo92]

5dpo today and just feel like I know I’m not going to be pregnant this month. The way I have both previous cycles.

Do you guys get this? I’m only on cycle 3 ttc but I just keep having the feeling it’s not going to happen for us. I don’t know if I’m just not allowing myself hope because I don’t want to feel the disappointment, but then I also have a weird worry about pessimism affecting my chances due to stress or something.

Anyone else have a continuous sense of doom? Did anyone have it but go on to conceive? I know I’m not psychic haha, but also I just don’t feel it’s normal to be this pessimistic

100%! I’ve also read so many of the stories that say “the month I wasn’t even thinking about it” or “the month we didn’t even try” was the one they got pregnant. So I try and have a month like that but then end up stressing myself so much wondering if I’m stressing about it too much