Sorry this is so long...
apologies to all the responses I am now behind given the time it's taken to write this...
Thanks to DivineMystic and others for the video synopses so I no longer have to suffer through them. She couldn't watch any more of it: was there anything further of note, did anyone else watch to the end? I appreciate these summaries very much, it has saved me slogging thru them to find anything related to cancer news. As DivineMystic put it so aptly: "I can't. I just can't" (I put my hand to my forehead in a Scarlett O'Hara gesture for added emphasis).
She is confused because of the scans and biopsies’ results that stated non cancerous and nothing on scan but she didn’t get what said the surgeon ( I think alas the surgeon is not very confident with the surgery for some unknown reasons … maybe too complicated ?
I am pretty sure she recorded her doctor meetings, she plays just seconds of it before editing out the rest on her YT vids, so I do think she has a record she could review herself or with her doctor cousin or rely on when laying out the situation for us, but chooses not to. Same with phone calls, with oncologist, nurse, etc., she has her phone and camera with her all the time. I have a sense she does have recordings of these discussions too, she tells us right away if an incoming call or one she just had was from one of these people and I think she's transcribed pertinent points, it seems part of her nature to be very organized. I bet her bullet journal is full of definitive info from the surgeon that she's jotted down for herself.
So, I don't think I can accept as reasonable any expressions of confusions, etc. She has had it explained, she has copies of the medical reports, she has a medical professional in her family. Heck, Google has helped my own understanding of Tiffany's situation enormously, I have read the studies on "watch and wait" for Stage 3 T4b adenocarcinoma. I've learned about MAC, I understand what a PET scan highlights and its limitations, what the biopsies show and don't show, etc. I have learned far more than Tiffany seems to understand and that's only from reading info given in her comments and quick Google searches to fill in missing details. What I don't have is the full picture only because it hasn't been shared. We're left to fill in or speculate. I just am not comfortable doing that knowing Tiffany actually HAS the answers but chooses not to disclose the entire picture to us.
This is the first first cancer YT'er I've ever watched (I was never a sub and I'm glad now). I do not have cancer and actually don't know why her video ever showed up as 'suggested'. Like so many others, I started with genuine concern and support but am now utterly confused. I also went back to watch many earlier ones. Now I'm vexed. I have been skipping thru her vids now looking for any cancer talk but frustrated by so much inane vacuous musings. I can't bear it. I have to skip thru comments now too...how can she have time/interest to read them all? Why isn't she using that time more productively to improve her cancer experience?
In her defense though, she did ask her viewers if they wanted to see other parts of her life whereby so many said they wanted to watch anything and everything she put out. Unfortunately, the promos "we wear the WGT merch everytime we go to the hospital, link is below if you want to buy", and repetitions: "going to hospital for blood test, treatment, tic tic tic", "how much would you pay", making & eating food, buying plants, opening presents, stupid emotional background music when filming extraneous events, etc etc, it's all become maddeningly frustrating and annoying. What was cute has now become irritating.
I no longer want to watch her physical journey, just tell us the pertinent, salient info in a sitdown, be straight to the point, tell us how you, Matt and Amma are feeling about it, and then I'll be glad to come back and support you. Show interesting related events, but stop thinking you need to make movies about it all! You are not the director of nor Jim Carrey in The Truman Show! That show was less than 2 hours long!
I have neither time nor interest in following her regular life in such minute, repetitive detail, why doesn't she split her videos between "regular life" and "cancer"? At least we could choose which part to engage in, it would be good for everyone since it's clear she has a desire to post every mundane detail of her life as she's been doing so long before cancer entered the picture and long before she had an audence of more than a few thousand who cared to follow her. If she would only give us a choice. I agree, the misleading titles are too much.
I too am now experiencing disdain at her trying to capitalize so much thru this trying time and from those following her to be there for her in her journey. From not donating the proceeds of her merch sales to a cancer charity (btw I know nonprofits that sell merch via bonfire, the revenue thru them is between £4-£11 depending on tshirt, sweatshirt, etc), to her amazon merch links, to food delivery promo, etc. I was really put off when she celebrated and received gifts when reaching 50k followers, I found it unseemly, as I also did hearing her talk about her 100k follower new objective and YT plaque. Her cancer journey is not entertainment, she should not be celebrating her increase in viewership as a sign of success and strategizing to achieve a certain greater # of viewers. We've become numbers to her now. Even having regular days to post her videos seems off (just post if there's anything going on with you related to cancer!), or calling extra videos titled with "cancer" a "bonus" video is completely missing the mark and who her audience is! That is outrageous and ugly to call anything a "bonus cancer video" We were mostly there to support her emotionally, offer her strength and prayers, and possibly learn from her experience. I don't want to be a number. I don't need "bonus cancer videos". That is abhorrent and absolutely distasteful.
She lost me when she began believing she was exchanging entertainment value for commercial benefit. She completely lost what this community was actually all about and turned it into a commercial venture. Even noticing the time she posts, the days, her shorts, attempt at tiktoks, what she is now doing as is recommended by other YTers for best exposure and monetary value, this is all very unseemly to me.
She lost the spirit she had initially created. Like others, I now cringe seeing Matt's pained expressions as Tiffany tries to film a hug with him, or Amma's when she's driving her to A&E, so worried about her daughter, or seeing her shots in a hospital bed knowing they were staged before captured and the camera was strategically placed there for maximum dramatic effect. I'm getting an "icky" feeling now.
I also cringe now seeing video of Tiff walking down a hospital corridor or other set up shots, knowing they aren't natural, but are cinematically added for YT content. I am nauseated thinking she is actually making a motion picture out of this rather than filming raw and real life experiences and emotions. That's what I was attracted to. That's what's been lost. To not even know her health status really leads me to believe that she's become too caught up in the "storyline" and perceived commercial success she's created that she can no longer face let alone disclose what's really going on. Unfortunately, I think Tiffany lost her true self and lost the true spirit and meaning of what she'd created. Instead of inspiring us to want to continue on, she lost at least me when she became too enthralled in her success and lost the big picture of documenting her raw, unedited cancer journey. We became numbers to her in her YT story.
I can't watch anymore for my own mental health so ~THANK YOU~ to those providing summaries here! I remain partially invested in her cancer journey, so this way, I can at least keep up with any pertinent health status updates! You are saving my sanity! I truly hope Tiffany can give great thought to what she's doing and what documenting and sharing her cancer journey is really about. It is a tragedy to knock down such a community of support and treat them as numbers to achieve financial gain, especially when she may need this community the most. To see the outpouring of support when she deigned to ask for opinions on her nontreatment choice only goes to show the depth of knowledge, experience and compassion she had built. It was quite overwhelming and inspiring. I hate that she may lose it all for such shallow ends. I hope she expands her outlook and talks to those around her who may be able to have a better grasp on what's going on. And let's hope it's only her audience who is left baffled and discombobulated by her health status, and that she has a much MUCH clearer picture of what is really going on with her health.
who the hell talks to their partner like that? And why does she repeat herself 10 times each and every sentence? “I’m using washy tape to cover up personal information, information that I don’t want to show you, I’ve just got this tape to cover it up, so I’m using this tape to just cover up the things I don’t want to show you, I’m putting tape over these bits - ohhhh darliiinggg matt I’m just saying I’m using tape to cover up these bits right? These bits I’ll put tape over them, so yeah I’ve got this tape over these bits”
