The Depression Thread #2

[JellyWobbles]

Hi
I was put on aripiprazole to help with my depression I’m also on five other meds for it but I had to stop taking this as I was getting tardive dyskinesia and couldn’t sleep the issue I have is that was the first med to really help me! I have a review on Friday I just wondered if anyone else was on mood stabilisers/anti psychotics that work and don’t have that side effect so I can ask to trial it. I really haven’t felt so well in a long time that when I was on it… so frustrating

 

[Fanny Muchmore]

You should have that angry cry. When you get the chance, run yourself a bath and close the door, have that cry. It'll be good for you.

 

[Maid22]

I’m so low. Been this way for a while now. On the strongest amount of anti deps I can take. Doctor doesn’t want to change them as I’m very low/suicide. I have no friends, not one. No family at all. I go weeks without talking to another human being. I’ve been in bed since Wed night. Just sleeping on and off. I honestly feel like my soul is dying and my body is playing catch up.

Hi you, I 'know you' from the same threads we post on, so sorry you're feeling like this, we all understand on this thread

 

[influenzainfluencer]

There's a thread on Sertraline here, it may be of use (?)

Experiences with setraline

I developed a weird tremor in my right arm when I was on sertraline. I notice it come on when I was anxious or thinking about something. I stopped noticing it after a while but my partner noticed it all the time and when he was hugging me or something my arm was jerking into his. It was like a...

tattle.life

I've had a few side effects, my dosage has increased from 50 to 100 mg so all the side effects I had when I first went onto the medication have re-emerged. I guess I'll get over them soon but it's frustrating at the moment.

Thank you for this, I must have missed the separate thread when I was looking. I hope you feel better again soon 🩵

 

[barmcake]

Exactly the same I'm starting new job on Monday and dreading how I'll feel. Good luck for Thursday

Good luck for today Rodneytrotter ...... am sure you'll be fine. Take your time to suss out people. Often the instantly friendly are the gossips and the difficult to get to know are the nicest. xx

 

[justheretoread99]

Hi all, hope everyone’s well.

Just been prescribed Mirtazapine to help me sleep. GP explained it’s an antidepressant which can help sleep due to anxieties & insomnia.

Has anyone taken this before? Worried about the side affects, as some can be suicidal thoughts & weight gain. Which are the ones I’m most worried about. I know all medication is trial and error, and I’ve been on a few, but just extra apprehensive about this one.

 

[The Devils Arse]

Hello everyone, I'm so glad there is a thread on here. I feel like tattle is my safe place with some amazing posters. I'm going to go back and have a read through the posts with a cup of tea when I have a spare hour.

Is it possible to be depressed and not realise it? I have been seeing a therapist due to v low self esteem and confidence issues. She did a anxiety test on me which I scored highly on, so no surprises there. She then did a depression test which I scored super high on. She said that she is concerned that because of this therapy may not work as well and thinks I need to go on medication to help along side the therapy. She's a retired mental health nurse so I value her opinion. I guess I'm just a bit surprised about scoring so high. I think I thought depression was about thoughts of self harm, suicide which I don't have.

I'm going to the doctors on a week Monday to have a chat. But I'm really concerned about going on anti depressants due to weight gain. I have struggled with my weight for years and have had a gastric sleeve as a result. I'm a few years out now and I am able to eat a bit more now and have put some weight on so I'm freaking out about that, which isn't helping my self esteem issues.

Have any of you wonderful people had an anti-depressant that doesn't cause weight gain?

Thanks if you got this far, and sorry for the long rambling post. Xx

 

[StatusWoe]

I'm trying to make a decision about antidepressants. I'd been taking Citalopram for a couple of years, but stopped a month ago. Since then, I've had awful panic attacks and very low mood. I spoke to the nurse and she said to restart them, but I have concerns about this.

• What if the depression and anxiety isn't a result of stopping the antidepressants? Maybe it's just coincidence. I have PMS, the weather has become dark and cold, and my mood does have natural ups and downs, so what if I'm just in a temporary down?
• If the Citalopram doesn't make a difference I'll only have to come off it and go through withdrawals all over again.
• I'm worried about side effects of taking medication long-term (i.e. over many years) because I'd been having stomach issues that seem to have disappeared since I stopped Citalopram. The leaflet said something about bleeding in stomach/intestine which terrified me even though it's apparently very rare. Also, I think my sleep's improved a bit and don't know if that's related to being off medication.
• My mood's not as bad as it was the first 3 weeks after I stopped taking it, so maybe it'll continue to even out?

So basically I'm hesitating. The list of 'pros' is shorter than the cons but still significant. Restarting antidepressants might stop the panic attacks and the terrible anxiety. Anything that has the potential to stop depression is worth considering. I was doing so well, and now I'm an upset irritable mess.

I wish I could erase myself from this planet.

Do you want to talk about what's going on? Is anyone helping you? It sounds as though you need all the support you can get at the moment. It is possible to overcome this kind of depression - even though it never feels that way when you're in the middle of it. You matter, please take care.

 

[Agent Cooper]

Been feeling utterly miserable, for many reasons, and I said to my husband today that I was looking forward to feeling a bit stronger so I could put the Christmas tree up and cheer myself up.

Then I see a post by a friend on Facebook:

"Its been a LONG time since I felt like bricking someones windows....but a fukking XMAS TREE on the 9th of November!! Some people are C**TS"

Made me feel like utter shite for even thinking about it.

Don’t listen to anyone and put that tree right up if you feel like it! Some people need no reason to get pissy I’m a big Christmas person, it’s never too early for Christmas decs!

 

[Agent Cooper]

Oh gosh I’m delighted it was any help! Meds are so expensive that if you get on ok with generic it’s madness to ever go near the branded. We can drive ourselves crazy (crazier?!) with researching side effects too. Remember, more people don’t suffer any side effects, or the medication wouldn’t be approved. So odds are in your favour. We only tend to hear from those who have had negative experiences.

I’ve learned to stay far away from any of it unless i actually start experiencing something myself and then it’s reassuring to discover others have suffered similar and it’s temporary etc.

I’m so glad you’re experiencing some relief already. The placebo effect isn’t to be scoffed at, it’s very powerful and scientifically valid.

Thank you so much for your encouragement and support I’m only worried about side effects because I experienced some rather brutal ones the first time around, but I’ve heard you don’t necessarily suffer them each time you start your meds. I’m also on a higher dose this time, 40mg as opposed to 20mg, and I’m already more productive than I was last week.

 

[What1981]

That’s a lot on your plate you poor thing sorry to hear you are unwell physically as well right now - is your doc helpful with managing symptoms, is there things you can take for pain? I had gallbladder issues last year and omg I wouldn’t wish that pain on my worst enemy

Try not to stress about work right now - you need to get better in order to even be of any use at work so that’s your focus right now. Have you checked into qualifying for disability due to your RA?

Thank you for being really lovely. I'm on antidepressants. Tried increasing the dosage but made me feel worse. Some days I feel as if I can deal with things and other days, I feel like everything is too much. I'm on biologic injections for my RA. Codeine for the gallbladder pain. I think because I'm rundown, things have hit me.
I applied for PIP, got rejected without being seen (phone assessment), I appealed and was rejected again.
So sorry you had to suffer with your gallbladder. Sending you love! Hope you are doing better. Both mentally & physically. Grateful for your kindness

 

[Maid22]

She’s doing well, thank you for asking!
Post-op check tomorrow, and then hopefully stitches out Thursday. Not sure when we’ll get biopsy results but I’m trying not to worry (ha ha)

Right now she wants to go to bed

Omg, she's gorgeous, is she a spaniel? I had to really look cos she looks like a collie with her colouring , fingers and toes crossed her results will come back clear x I'm in bed with my handsome boy next to me, that's my dog not my oh

 

[Maid22]

@watermelon sugar , from what you've been through and having battled depression, please go see your GP x

[QUOTE="ilovepizza21
No ones ever loved me and tbh I don't care I got head strong & happy to be alone but right now I feel I'm Downing and there is only one way out x
[/QUOTE]
The first person who ever said to me I love you is my oh of many years, never heard it from my 'parents', I get you, I'm so happy to be alone, I hardly see anyone, but I also know that dark place, I've been there a few times, please try to stay strong, just get through tonight x

 

[greenvelvet]

Has anyone heard of Zyban/Wellbutrin (bupropion)? It’s got rave reviews and I’m really keen to try it especially as I have an addictive personality and quit smoking not long ago, which it’s supposed to be good for (nicotine addiction has translated to vaping which I also want to quit). It’s prescribed off label for depression here but primarily is issued as a smoking cessation aid so I’m thinking to try to get it

re sertraline

I’ve started taking sertraline again, starting at 50mg - it hasn’t made me have an anxiety attack but I have felt more anxious I guess. That usually lasts about a week. It makes me feel physically tense and I grind my teeth on it for as long as I am on it, to the point my teeth have chipped a bit. I get bad bruising on it (apparently uncommon) after about a month so I only take it for about that amount of time. It has been really helpful in the past but now it’s only kind of helpful

I had a poke around and found other people complaining about having panic attacks which I know are different but it’s a similar anxiety response i guess https://www.reddit.com/r/beyondtheb...oloft_and_increased_anxiety_anyone_on_zoloft/

Reddit - Dive into anything

www.reddit.com

It’s really commonly prescribed so hopefully someone can share some more personal exps with you.

If it doesn’t settle, maybe (with agreement from your gp) you can lower your dose or try a different med? Sorry you’re going through this at Christmas

 

[Fledgling Psycho]

@Agent Cooper Hi years ago when I first took Prozac it was the most wonderful experience and for the first time in my life knew what it was like to feel like I was on the inside of my skin instead of all raw on the outside if that makes sense. I thought so this is what it's like to feel "normal". Of course in time the feeling wore off sadly. Oh I hope it goes well for you and no side effects. I never had any luckily.
I'm pretty low at the moment. Feeling old and crap and on blood pressure & statin tablets. I'm hoping it's just a blip and I'll get up again. I never know if I have true depression or it's part of Asperger's and ADD functioning. Also I get reverse SAD and bloody hate the bright sunshine and heat. Ugh.

 

[Sheabutter]

Yesterday I felt great, today’s a klonopin taking day. Mental health is a ride

Also the spending discussion has me side eyeing my behavior. I need all the things I purchase I think lol

 

[Into_the_tunnel]

I’m so sorry your mum said that to you ITT, that couldn’t be less helpful. I reckon you’ll always find someone here who can sympathise or empathise because as much as we’re all nasty Tattle Trolls () I’ve never met such a kind bunch of strangers, with a wealth of knowledge and understanding - one of which is you ITT.

I was disappointed we couldn’t message anymore and I wasn’t sure whether or not to say this in ‘public’ so I hope it’s ok - when I returned to Monroesville, I noticed a shift in your type of post. You seemed more despondent and really quite down but it didn’t just seem connected to Jack if that makes sense. You’re so funny and quick witted and it was like you couldn’t be bothered making jokes. I really hope I haven’t overstepped the mark in saying that.

My Dr Smith book has arrived but procrastinating is my middle name so I’ll maybe be able to provide a book review in 6-9 months. Good god, am I Jack?!

Lots of love

Oh, your message made me tear up. I had to go out to the shop and do my “job”, but .

Sometimes everything does feel really heavy, the guilt for not doing what I was meant to be doing in life spreads everywhere. It is the realisation that life will no longer be what it was. It is the constant battle not to go back into old habits. This place has honestly been my lifeline to social connection and it has been months to accept that too. That lives change, that the ways we socially interact change, that our expectations of where we would be change if things come along to radically alter our MH (and physical health).

If you rate the book, I will definitely get it, she seems really good from what I have now looked at on Instagram.

Thank you for accepting me here and for letting me speak.

 

[Fledgling Psycho]

@Ray_of_Sunshine I don't really have any advice but do identify with that awful feeling that takes you over when you wake up. Having to hide away as you just can't face putting on the okay mask today.
I was prescribed Mirtazipine once and after reading reviews of it, I thought I'd experiment one weekend to see how it affected me. I took it about 2 pm and never woke until the following day about 2.30 & that was only because my phone was ringing! Good luck.

 

[BettyCrockerr]

I'm in a very dark place

Ive been single for 10 years, im 32. Whilst I see everyone around me create happy families and do lovely things with their partners I have been alone. Guys show me a bit of attention but either ghost me or leave after a couple of months
My dad chose my abusive step mother over me as a teenager and recently i was diagnosed with body dysmorphia and severe depression.
I had come along way and been discharged by the mental health service but after finding out the last guy I was seeing who told me he wasn't ready for a relationship is seeing someone I just dont think I can cope anymore.
I hate my life, I feel miserable and trapped. I have good friends but it's so hard to tell them you're at the end of your rope and your life feels worthless when they all thought you were better and are probably tired of having to help you and support you.
I dont know what to do anymore, I'll never find love and my life will always be pointless. I'll always be plagued with depression and I just dont know what to do.

You are only 32. You are so young!


You need to stop placing responsibility of your own happiness into the hands of men. You can have have a perfectly happy, fulfilling life that you enjoy as a single person. Being in a relationship doesn’t automatically equate to being happy. It’s impossible

You said you’ve recently been diagnosed with serious depression but that you’ve been signed off by the mental health services? That doesn’t sound right. If you’ve just had that diagnosis then why have you been signed off???

You need to go back to your GP or contact your MH team - explain that you are not feeling fine and that you need help.


Please reach out to a friend - they will want to be there for you so just drop a message or something to them.

 

[Fanny Muchmore]

Sending love and hugs to everyone struggling

My GP had taken me off Zoloft again. I've been on it for a month, and in that month my insomnia (which I've had for 30 years) has been so terrible I've had a really hard time coping, and it's affected my other health conditions too.

I'm starting back on prozac tomorrow, which is what I was on before the Duloxetine.