Glad I found this thread. I’m really struggling at the moment. I’ve struggled with my mental health since I was about 14 after my sister had cancer. Ever since then I’ve never been happy for a long period of time. I’ve had multiple different therapies, medications you name it. Nothing has made a difference. I’ve been on a serious decline since having my son in 2020, anxiety and depression is eating me alive. My extended family have been horrendous, they completely ignored me when it was my child’s birthday, not even a text on the day. I know it’s me, everything is my fault. I don’t have any friends. I’m invisible at work, always been too shy/quiet. Ultimately, I wish I was someone else, I wish I was pretty, confident, bubbly. I wish I wasn’t here anymore. The only reason why I’m still here is because of the guilt of leaving my child behind.