no to derail but
the weird thing is that I even studied psychology in children (also adults, also diagnostics etc), but saw only level 2 in real life and suspected that some adults might be level 1 but I knew only about oldfasioned white male criteria, then maybe a year ago I saw great video
and that feeling you get that you know it might be you if... and my if were no speech delays, no intellectual delays (on the contrary), and since we were discussing Hanny and Davy and I am honestly not like that, you would never know if you see me, I can mask as there is no tomorrow, I look and have sarcastic humor more like Kat, always smiling etc. but then everything else
my mother was a kindergarten director and we met during the summer with another director whose grandchild is level 2-3 and they were discussing it, so I asked them (as bluntly as I could) that I suspect that I can be on the spectrum and they both said no (almost like "common, you?")
I recognized it this summer in my friends child (possibly level 2) and my brothers kid (one of the twins (level 1)) crazy is that they are the same age (3.5 yrs) but they behave very differently, my brothers kid is an observer, he loves movement, I immediately knew that he sees the world through different eyes, so I again went down the rabbit hole and researched the * out of it and I arrived, home, where my aliens live
![Purple heart :purple_heart: 💜](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/gh/joypixels/emoji-assets@5.0/png/64/1f49c.png)
hidden in the plain sight
obviously so many things make sense now, and I am laughing on why we offend NTs with the best intentions
btw that I can tell what people are feeling and thinking was also something what i thought was against this diagnosis, but then when I thought about it, I can tell because I learned to recognize it, also growing up, I have always NT friend who was like a translator of human reactions for me, I always wondered why I do not get certain things (shall I say people's emotions but was hyperempathetic the same time), so I can see it between them but not towards me I think, either way it takes a lot of energy bc it is like a analysis, synthesis, details, categories, focus in a speed of light
(sometimes I am totally oblivious, also super blunt and stuff I can tell people...but you know it is a fact, which reminds me of Davy stating out loud what everyone was thinking)