I've contacted my supervisors at my university and for the first time have told them I'm suffering. I hope to meet them on Monday.This is a really serious situation and it sounds like you need to be out of there ASAP. Is there anyone you can call, even a distant relative that you haven't seen in years? Any friends, no matter how long ago you last saw them? For a space to stay on a temporary basis? A couch to sleep on?
If he physically attacks you, please seriously consider calling the police. If nothing else to have a record of this behaviour.
Thinking longer term, in the UK there are a lot of free counselling services that your GP can refer you to.
Regarding the moving out, I was in the same situation with credit score. I had a CCJ that essentially prevented most landlords renting to me. It was very stressful. I had a major spiral in the year before I was finally diagnosed with ADHD, and racked up £3k of credit card debt, then found myself technically homeless and didn't receive any letters about it (not that I was in the frame of mind to deal with it anyway). I am convinced these CCJs should be criminal. Even paying the debt off you're still left with a ruined credit score for 6 years.
Anyway, there are landlords who are happy with an employment reference only. I'm not sure whereabouts you are, but even in London you can rent a room in a shared (decent) house for £500/month. It takes longer to find those landlords but they do exist. My current landlords asked for previous landlord references and an employment reference. They are wonderful. You would need a 5 week deposit (they can't legally charge you any more than that now).
Please also consider getting checked out at hospital if you've mixed pills and wine. Better to be safe than sorry.
ETA - just seen your mention of university. Please go to them! There will be so many resources there to help you. They might even be able to sort out temporary free housing until you find a more permanent option. Ask, ask, ask! Tell them how serious it is. Tell them the police did nothing last time and that you're in danger. They have people trained to help in situations like this and so many resources.
PPS: If this was 5 years ago, then here is a tiny silver lining: these things stay on your record for 6 years. Then they are removed. So a year from now (or thereabouts) you will be able to apply for loans, overdrafts, pass credit checks on housing, etc. They will all help you immensely.
ETA link: https://www.nhs.uk/mental-health/ta...rapies-and-counselling/nhs-talking-therapies/
I have contacted my university supervisors and asked them to meet on Monday, and, for the first time, have let them know that I'm suffering immensely. Hopefully they will be able to help. I've tested positive for Covid so am isolated for the week but hopefully the week after can get out of here.This is a really serious situation and it sounds like you need to be out of there ASAP. Is there anyone you can call, even a distant relative that you haven't seen in years? Any friends, no matter how long ago you last saw them? For a space to stay on a temporary basis? A couch to sleep on?
If he physically attacks you, please seriously consider calling the police. If nothing else to have a record of this behaviour.
Thinking longer term, in the UK there are a lot of free counselling services that your GP can refer you to.
Regarding the moving out, I was in the same situation with credit score. I had a CCJ that essentially prevented most landlords renting to me. It was very stressful. I had a major spiral in the year before I was finally diagnosed with ADHD, and racked up £3k of credit card debt, then found myself technically homeless and didn't receive any letters about it (not that I was in the frame of mind to deal with it anyway). I am convinced these CCJs should be criminal. Even paying the debt off you're still left with a ruined credit score for 6 years.
Anyway, there are landlords who are happy with an employment reference only. I'm not sure whereabouts you are, but even in London you can rent a room in a shared (decent) house for £500/month. It takes longer to find those landlords but they do exist. My current landlords asked for previous landlord references and an employment reference. They are wonderful. You would need a 5 week deposit (they can't legally charge you any more than that now).
Please also consider getting checked out at hospital if you've mixed pills and wine. Better to be safe than sorry.
ETA - just seen your mention of university. Please go to them! There will be so many resources there to help you. They might even be able to sort out temporary free housing until you find a more permanent option. Ask, ask, ask! Tell them how serious it is. Tell them the police did nothing last time and that you're in danger. They have people trained to help in situations like this and so many resources.
PPS: If this was 5 years ago, then here is a tiny silver lining: these things stay on your record for 6 years. Then they are removed. So a year from now (or thereabouts) you will be able to apply for loans, overdrafts, pass credit checks on housing, etc. They will all help you immensely.
ETA link: https://www.nhs.uk/mental-health/ta...rapies-and-counselling/nhs-talking-therapies/
I had the one glass of wine, no more. Mixing that with pills is not something I ever do - I don't want to be like AE - but I feel alright. Just absolutely emotionally drained. I'm at my utter limit so am going to get some sleep.
Thank you for all your kind advice. It is so reassuring to know that there are good and kind people in the world.
The same goes for all of you. Thank you.
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I'm still not fully caught up but am going to put the deliberately vicious people on ignore. I like reasoned viewpoints and discussion. Seems like these posters don't want that 
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Can you put your feet up and start from scratch? 
Duncan had quiet day yest after his adventures but boy was he chuffed with himself & all "I'm good boy I am" with kisses & scritchies
. Not weird at all I love the poo picking also am weirdly anal about counting them all
. A little light lunging today, then another walk out Fri 
ps will get around to digging beads out at some point & take pics
......you know how to contact me if you want, sending huge hugs & support right now you really are a good friend xxx
Hope you all enjoy yourselves out again tomorrow 
