My ex really broke me and our relationship was toxic. Towards the end which was last year, he was drinking everyday and blacking out. He would wake me up by screaming at me, pinching me and slapping me in the mornings still drunk. I left his place (we were quarantining together) when he got fucked at a work friends house and I took away his car keys/wouldn’t let him drive drunk. He screamed at me in front of his work friend and his flatmates that he hated me, that I was scum and he ‘disowned’ me. I gathered as much as I could of my stuff from his house went back to my mums house. It got worse at the end versus the whole relationship, but he was always a big drinker and had cheated on me with an under age girl at the start of our relationship.
Fast forward to now, almost a year and a half since we broke up. I’m in a lovely relationship where I’m taken care of properly and truly feel safe. I am so happy with my relationship.
Yet I’m sat in the middle of the night feeling like I’ve been shot in the chest, and I get waves of thinking about if I run into him somewhere, thinking about him makes me physically feel ill. I’ve been in therapy for 6 months and I feel like the more time passes in my healthy relationship the more I’m deeping how I was treated. It makes me feel physically ill & I feel traumatised
Fast forward to now, almost a year and a half since we broke up. I’m in a lovely relationship where I’m taken care of properly and truly feel safe. I am so happy with my relationship.
Yet I’m sat in the middle of the night feeling like I’ve been shot in the chest, and I get waves of thinking about if I run into him somewhere, thinking about him makes me physically feel ill. I’ve been in therapy for 6 months and I feel like the more time passes in my healthy relationship the more I’m deeping how I was treated. It makes me feel physically ill & I feel traumatised