Ugh fucking hell, I think I need to take a step back from watching her and reading here.
She is giving me rage. The ugliest, fat, ignorant, rude head with those rotten bug eyed glasses, shite talking into her phone. Her skin looks horrible and she needs a good wash with a power hose. A useless good for nothing cunt who has no appreciation for the 2 healthy kids she has and just uses them for attention. Couldn't lie straight in the bed and contradicts herself every day. Yesterday she needs to slow down and enjoy the baby and rest at home as she's doing too much and today she wants to get out and drag the child out shopping I'm this awful weather.
I far from have the hardest life, especially when you look at what's happening in Gaza and the devastation caused by flooding in Cork this week. She just irks me so bad with everything being handed to her. Repeatedly saying that the deliveries are piling up, just to rub it in everyone's faces. Constant wasteful spending. No thought for anyone but herself and beyond ungrateful that she is being housed by her parents.
Money is very tight for us now with 4kids and coming into winter (fuel) and Christmas.. I don't know if I can go back to work after my last baby, can't afford to not work but can't really afford the childcare at the moment. (Nobody else's fault, we brought them into the world, their our kids). It's just rotten to watch her thrive on doing nothing.
I know she's a miserable cunt really who is dead inside but sometimes the injustice of it gets the better of me. Yes she has no home, half a partner, lives with the parents, no job as such and no wedding (again), but she deserves even less. Look at all the women on here who would give everything for 1 living, breathing child..
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A child who would be cherished, not neglected and exploited.
Despite coming from a bit of a complex family background (lots of emotional blackmail and coercive control), I've done my best to get on in life, get an education, get a "good job", buy a house, have a family, actually mind my own kids instead of passing them to anyone available.. try and give them nice things as well as the necessities, but also instill values and appreciation. Raise them as best I can and enjoy them too, in the midst of the madness and demands of them all
I'm so fortunate to have my family and my home. It's all I ever wanted and now that I have them, I worry about them and us all the time. Like many families, our lifestyle and quality of life has drastically changed over the past couple of years with the cost of living crisis and changes in employment and earnings due to childcare needs. My eldest sometimes gets frustrated that kids in class had the best of everything and went on amazing hols when we're struggling and you just feel like shit!
Sorry now, I'm like a bitch this morning and in a hole of self pity that I need to just get over because I have a lot more than so so many. Very little sleep lately with sick kids and worries over bills mounting and work concerns have me rattled.
As a parent, all you want to do is protect and provide for your family and it feels like this country has made it borderline impossible for the average person to do that. All the while, this vile scum is rewarded for doing absolutely nothing productive.