Hi, new commenter (long-time lurker). Just had to share this comment I saw on her recent YT short video "Italy daily vlog", and my thoughts on it.
I think Ruby's comment sums up her approach to basically everything and this outlook is a big part of her problems. She seems to think that if she acts as though she likes reading, writing, academia, specific fashions, travelling, being vegan, etc., for long enough, that one day actual joy should come from those for her.
She seems to be going about growing a personality all backwards. Instead of naturally discovering one likes something, developing and broadening that interest, and eventually it becoming part of your personality, Ruby seems to have imagined a personality she wants to have and is trying to force herself into it. Except she doesn't actually force herself to do things like read more or become a better writer, probably because it is just not a natural way of being. (Plus being malnourished cannot be aiding her willpower.)
I think if Ruby truly enjoyed writing, her writing would be significantly better, even if she was not producing masterpieces. Loads of people have hobbies and interests that they are not naturally gifted in, and still manage to improve them with the practice that comes naturally when often doing something you love.
I think she needs to take a step back and really consider what she enjoys doing, and then do it without the pressure of videoing it or immediately making it a core personality trait. For example, enjoying writing does not need to equal being a "writer". I do not have high hopes for this to happen though.
I think Ruby's comment sums up her approach to basically everything and this outlook is a big part of her problems. She seems to think that if she acts as though she likes reading, writing, academia, specific fashions, travelling, being vegan, etc., for long enough, that one day actual joy should come from those for her.
She seems to be going about growing a personality all backwards. Instead of naturally discovering one likes something, developing and broadening that interest, and eventually it becoming part of your personality, Ruby seems to have imagined a personality she wants to have and is trying to force herself into it. Except she doesn't actually force herself to do things like read more or become a better writer, probably because it is just not a natural way of being. (Plus being malnourished cannot be aiding her willpower.)
I think if Ruby truly enjoyed writing, her writing would be significantly better, even if she was not producing masterpieces. Loads of people have hobbies and interests that they are not naturally gifted in, and still manage to improve them with the practice that comes naturally when often doing something you love.
I think she needs to take a step back and really consider what she enjoys doing, and then do it without the pressure of videoing it or immediately making it a core personality trait. For example, enjoying writing does not need to equal being a "writer". I do not have high hopes for this to happen though.