One, thank you for this, I've been so curious about this video
"I don't like the idea that I will never will be living at home again"
As someone close to Ruby's age this baffles me. I feel once you move out, unless you have an absolutely terrible time as long as you have a good relationship with your parents you would want to go and visit but not move back home, anxiety or not. I suffer from extreme anxiety, have been back to my parents house and was stuck there for a while due to the pandemic, and as nice as they are there's no way I'd move back in unless I absolutely needed to.
I know the fear of being alone is very real, but to me running to your parents really isn't helpful.
Absolutely, Ruby would only benefit from cutting the cord and getting some exposure therapy by living alone instead of rushing back home at every minor opportunity to be mollycoddled by her parents. She's gotten worse since this video, and it'll only get worse from here. Even then she was practically talking herself out of the idea of leaving home even after already being locked into a mortgage.
Since then, she's ditched uni under the cloak of 'ronaphobia (despite proving time and time again that she never really had any anxiety about Covid, and she'd happily lick a sewer grate if a sponsor offered her money), bought a child's bed, filled her wardrobe with a child's clothes, wrecked her health trying to physically transform her body into that of a child and become more sheltered and deluded than ever.
She's longing for the days when she was told by her parents and the teachers she sucked up to that she was special and gifted, before she dipped her toe into adulthood and realised she was just a small, dull fish in a massive ocean full of more diverse, brighter and interesting creatures. She's not particularly intelligent, or smart about her academic habits, her YouTube fame was founded on lucking into the studytube fad and having a vaguely unique angle (Hermione cosplay) to deliver on that rather than any real creative talent or ability (as evidenced by the fact that her content hasn't changed or improved on any level in 6 years). She's quickly experiencing the result of diminishing returns.
That's only going to get harder as her views decline, her health fails, she fades into irrelevance, and academia (if she makes it onto a Masters course) gets harder for her to brute force her way through with endless busywork and monopolising her teachers' time.
If she'd stuck it out living at uni and continued with therapy, she might be in a better position to deal with the major changes she's going to have to handle after uni ends. As it stands, the combination of graduation and YouTube irrelevance is going to hit her like a speeding train, and she'll have no emotional tools to deal with it besides running to mummy and daddy and throwing endless tantrums that life isn't giving her what she thinks she's entitled to.