gossip_guy
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Yup, she doesn't like reading and hates most popular books as they contain grown-up themes and ideas and require more thought and concentration. But being a bookworm is part of her manufactured personality and she craves praise and acknowledgement at all times, so she has to like all the books other people do. "I'm not like other girls" is just the "I based my entire personality on other girls" catchphrase for her.What she means is that people began wondering why she just never mentioned SoA again and questioning why she didn't like it and didn't want to be seen as the odd one out that doesn't like a popular book. I thought she wasn't like other girls, what happened there?
As daft as it is, people won't disagree with you faster on the internet than if you say you don't like or aren't interested in their favourite things, even if you have constructive and rational reasons. "I never had an Ancient Greece phase when I was younger like everyone did" is a very stupid reason - I can see logic in wanting to familiarise yourself with Greek myths to better enjoy a novel deeply rooted in them, but like everything, she explains herself in a completely alien way. She would've gotten a tonne of comments/DMs about not reading the book after that last video and has now instantly U-turned. She still won't read it. She'll revert to her usual tactic of lying about reading it, give it vague praise based on the cover blurb, give it 5 stars on Goodreads and never speak of it again.
It's also very telling when saying she never finished The Secret History (I highly doubt she ever started) in that last video. She couldn't say, "I tried this after seeing tonnes of hype, but I just couldn't get into it - it's just not for me". It had to be: "This is one of the best books I've ever read and I couldn't put it down! But I quickly put it down and didn't read it." She says she was scared she wasn't reading it at the right time. You mean during your months on the dark academia bandwagon wasn't the right time to read a hallmark dark academia book, Ruby?
But she also has to stop herself from saying "I wanted to be reading it at the same time" - presumably as other people. She wants to be deep in the zeitgeist, riding the wave of newly-discovered things. But like everything, she's always three steps behind on every trend, so it becomes harder to force herself to like these things because everyone else has talked about them and moved on already and she's not part of the conversation (not that she'd have anything insightful to say). But she also has no interests or ideas of her own, so she'll always be stuck in that loop - never a trendsetter, but too culturally unaware to be part of the trends while they're still new and relevant.
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