I remember this well! I’m 40 and 25 weeks pregnant. My NHS trust has not called it a geriatric pregnancy to my face which I’ve really appreciated, I am on the ‘red’ or high risk pathway because I am 40 and I have a high BMI, but honestly this doesn’t really mean anything different. I have some additional advice and have a few extra appointments and checks. I’m afraid my insomnia has never gotten better the whole pregnancy (I literally have slept the night through once since finding out I was pregnant

), but you do somehow learn to cope with it even though I wasn’t convinced this was ever going to be possible.
I thought I was having a private early pregnancy scan at 8 weeks and when they measured me I was 7 weeks and 1 day. My baby was literally a smudge with heartbeat. Nothing remotely resembling a baby at all. I don’t regret going then as us, because I waited as long as I could, but it would have been good to have been a bit further along to see a bit more.
The hospital I am due to give birth in made the press for being ‘terrible’ for maternity services, but when I read the actual reports, the media had overstated the issues. I had cause to go there last week (I was fine, the baby was fine, was a teeny scare but it was totally ok and everyone was just being extra safe and cautious) and I honestly cannot rate the care I received there more highly. They were amazing, fast, caring, efficient. So, don’t believe everything you read even though it’s so easy to go into a spiral, I totally did when the local radio was telling me how terrible the hospital was on my drive home one day.
Very early pregnancy is a bit wild. You can have basically no symptoms and have no idea if something is happening or not and it can drive you mad. That can be totally normal though! So can having all sorts of weird and wonderful symptoms. I have some sort of dermatitis that broke out on my face in the early weeks that I can’t get rid of, and the first trimester my sinuses were full of bloody mucus and I was not expecting either of those things. I’m glad you found us! I hope we can help you manage your anxiety a bit, we have pretty much all been there