Absolutely this. Some clinicians simply don't like that people ask fair questions as they see it as them not being trusted or undermined. That's their problem, not yours. You can simply say that you are trying to make an informed decision and you want to know the facts to help you do that.I’m sorry you’re being made to feel like this.
The way it reads is that because they think she’s big and she’s breech, they are worried you’ll go naturally early and if you go fast you’ll have to have an emergency CS or deliver vaginally breech which they consider, on balance, more risky. Is that right?
It sounds like they’re not giving you all of information and being a bit “because I said so, you don’t need to know why” but ultimately, if she doesn’t turn sadly the birth you wanted and envisaged won’t be possible so even if they were lovey that’s hard to take.
Sometime it can help to arrange your thoughts when stressed, to break it down on paper. I’m not “questioning” you to judge, stress or put pressure on, but to try to help think of it as though you’re taking to friends (us) rather than justifying yourself to professionals. You don’t have to actually reply of course…
What is making you want to wait? Is it that you think she may not be that large or that she may yet turn so you won’t need the c-section full stop?
Have they explained what breech position she is in currently and if your placenta position is any issue?
If she is the predicted size, can they tell you the chance she will turn and if she isn’t, what are the chances then?
Do you have additional risk factors that make your specific case different to someone else’s. Can they explain them?
Would you rather try for a vaginal birth if she remains breech? If not, is 40 weeks your max?
The only things I will say from a personal level is while they way overestimated 2nd baby, 1st baby they had spot on size wise. Urgent emergency c-sections aren’t nice at all. Anything you can do now to reconcile that you mightn’t get your birth preferences will help you in the days after, that hormone drop can do strange things.
And most importantly, if you’re struggling to connect to baby right now that has absolutely no bearing on how you’ll feel when she is here. None, not a single bit. Annnnnddddd even if she arrives in a way that makes you sad and disconnected, it doesn’t say anything about how you’ll feel the next day, or the day after that… Do not worry about that bit at all.
Lots of love to you x
If those facts do suggest a planned C-section really is the best option, then so be it.