They went through IVF very early on in their relationship, from almost the start.
I think MH believed being a father was going to help him and make him happy but he was late 30‘s, liked hard drugs and alcohol and parties a lot which Is not really compatible with a family lifestyle. Paula was very intense and I think He was out of his depth - committed to Paula but not really able to handle all of the intense emotions that came along with it.
INXS was not doing very well and he was no longer the young, cute Adonis he once was as he tried dyed his hair black and tried to become edgy.
the court cases with Bob playing out in public was horrible for a private MH. He hated living in the U.K. due to press intrusion and wanted to leave - but couldn’t cos of Paula
all in all he had valid reasons to find life overwhelming and the night he died he was exceptionally depressed, as everyone who spoke to him that night agreed