Live tonight gulping her 'mauled wine'
Said she videod Lowens nativity but couldn't share it because of the other 'trildren' but might be able to do something to block them out. He's done nativity three times this week and had a pj day at school, finishes on Tues, the parents get to get them early so she's helping the woman with her cleaning again on Tues so she can collect her kid too.
Kaff turned up yesterday with loads of gifts from the group, made her open the one for the animals, she's so overwhelmed, doesn't know why people want to send them gifts (yeah we've been wondering that for years Jo) she basically plugs the gift group, says there's so many gifts she doesn't know what to say, she can't take it all in. She will do a video thanking all the people who sent her stuff, part of her feels guilty that she gets sent stuff but doesn't send stuff back.... But not guilty enough to insist that people stop sending eh Jo??
She's coming out of it now but she's been so depressed lately, was thinking she might have to go on meds again, watching her videos back she comes across fine but really she's been struggling, feeling down and
tit about herself, doesn't like her hair, her nose, her body, keeps picking holes in herself about everything that's wrong with her.... Yeah we agree with you Jo, your hairs grim your nose is enormous and your shapeless boy body looks
tit even when you dress like a hooker.
She thinks part of the reason she is down is because she was chatting to a bloke and was at the stage of looking at her phone all the time waiting for a message (so she had been talking to him for a whole hour!
) he was ignoring her and making her feel
tit, she told him that and he said he was thinking of her he'd just been busy and she said well if you are thinking about me why aren't you replying to me (psst Jo, he was thinking what a
bleeping bunny boiler you are!)
As soon as she let's blokes in they always let her down, she just wants someone to make her a priority for once. The bloke said he just goes quiet sometimes and she says that's fine but she needs more than that, it only takes two seconds to message, she deserves more.... So it's not fine then!
If it only takes two seconds Jo why do you constantly ignore people and not reply to their messages?? One rule for you and another for everyone else as usual.
She believes people are made of energies but some people only come to her when they want her to help them, if they are low she picks them up but that leaves her energy low and she is drained, they are energy vampires, all they do is moan and whinge and then
duck off when they feel better, she's had to cut so many people like that out of her life and sometimes she has to say sorry I don't have the energy to lift you up.... Jo if this was a hint to Julia then forget it, it will have gone straight over her head, in fact she's probably already messaged you fifteen times to tell you she has had exactly the same experience as you and she completely understands and of course she has so many problems herself which she'll just explain to you yet again!
She says she knows lots of people but has few friends especially local that she can go to, she's a really good friend but people let her down so she's learning to cut them out if they don't treat her as well as she treats them, she will put up with being let down once but after that she cuts them out of her life with no explanation.
She does wonder if she is the problem (yes you are are Jo, you are a vile spiteful
witch) she thinks maybe she cuts people too quickly but she would rather be alone than around people who don't respect her.
Brooke has borrowed her lorry as her new horse won't travel in the one they bought. Jo thought about selling her lorry as she was getting bitter that others were using it all the time and she wasn't and it was getting wear and tear that was nothing to do with her. Thought about loaning it out but insurance too high and too much hassle. Again she felt like people only want her when she has got something they want, people use her. Quickly backtracks and says Brooke and her family are lovely, aren't using her, she's sure they would pay for anything that went wrong.
New car had a rat in the engine and the dogs were going frantic scratching the paintwork trying to get to it, luckily she has the warranty to cover it.
Someone asks about Hugo so she tells the story again but actually names Jade, said she was going to sell him for ยฃ12,000 and jade would get ยฃ3,000.Jade had been letting a 15yr old have lessons on Hugo, she rode him when Jade wasn't there once and another girl told Jade she was very hard on him, Jade told the girl not to ride him if she wasn't there. The girl asked for a lesson one day and jade said yes tack him up I'll be there in a minute. The girl put the wrong bridle/bit on him and he reared backwards. Jo says she never normally blames riders but Hugo had never reared and gone back before and she'd ridden him for a year and he'd never done it, she knows he didn't do it out of malice. He had a year off, she rode him a couple of times (translate as she sat on him for 15 seconds in the stable and rode him a few feet up the lane once) and he did nothing wrong. Brooke started riding and Jo herself noticed he was starting to look sore, she had him checked by a saddle fitter and a vet, she basically makes out she did everything she could for him like a good owner
She felt guilty putting him out for sales livery but he was the only horse worth something and no one had ever given her a horse of that quality for free. A vet was loaning him before, she had a big hose, went on holidays and Jo felt they should pay for Hugo as he was a quality horse and they shouldn't be having him for free. They refused to pay ยฃ3,000 for him so he came home and that's why she felt someome should pay what he was worth but it backfired and now he's an expensive field ornament.
Only ones she could sell are Trixie and Seven but she doesn't want to sell them, no one else would want the others, they can't be ridden and are unsellable.
Slags Nathan off saying he said he loved JB but shirked his responsibility once JB was hurt so she wasn't prepared to be in the same situation with Hugo hence why she tried to sell him.
Rants about Daisy, says even when the door is open she comes in and shits in the house and then Dyson pisses on it. She changes the carpet each week, luckily piotr gets offcuts from work. She doesn't know how to stop her and doesn't have the time to be constantly taking her out. God that place must stink!
Says her sisters dog is trained but shits in the house as well.... It's not trained then is it Jo?
Says she knows lots of people with Jack russels and small dogs and they are all the same, she doesn't know what to do but she's had loads of dogs and reared loads of puppies and they all leave her house trained.
Says she is going, tells everyone to like and share posts as she needs as many followers as possible as she's got bills to pay, fb put ads on and she gets paid for them so the more ads that get watched the more money she earns, she doesn't want to come across as beggy but every little helps when you have as many field ornaments as she has. You are beggy Jo, it's all you ever
bleeping do alongside moaning and whinging.... It's really draining you know, there's a thing called being an energy vampire have you heard of it??!
if any of my four children had sounded that bad at that age I would definitely be seeking advice, I understand he's excited but that's soooo bad 
