Hi everyone, I’m relieved to find I’m not alone in all of this but also quite sad too. I’m struggling with my N.Mum currently; we moved away at the beginning of the year following the death of our daughter and death of my Papa. My Papa is my Mum’s dad, and she sees the fact that we have moved away as a personal attack on her. It’s not.
Our relationship hasn’t been great over the years but I’ve always tried as I’m an only child and I feel that I can cope with the emotional abuse so I can have a Mum and my Son have a Nana. Me moving away has really broken this. She won’t answer FaceTime calls from my son (she’s too upset to see him) and she won’t let me visit with him. The drive is two hours and I’m prepared to do it, but she is always busy, too sick or the dog is sick.
A few weeks ago she sent me a text saying that her neighbours were asking where I was and she was embarrassed as she didn’t know what I was doing and claimed that I’ve never offered to come back and see her. I sent her screenshots of every time and i got ignored. I nearly texted one of the neighbours saying if you’re that bothered, here’s where I moved to and here’s where I work. She didn’t answer the phone when my son had surgery as she had a fall that day (???). She likes to send my son expensive gifts through the post with a long winded card or letter; she forgets that he’s 5 and can’t read so clearly these letters are a guilt trip for me.
Mother’s Day was really hard because I lost my daughter back in September. I sent her cards from me and my son and I didn’t get a thank you. I got a lot of texts off friends making sure I was okay as it was my first one without my baby, but nothing from her.
oh I do have a Dad by the way, who is a huge enabler to this behaviour. I texted him the other day as we are both Foo Fighters fans and we loved Taylor Hawkins. I got nothing in return.
sometimes I send photos or videos of my boy and I don’t hear anything, which makes me sad. I have to be careful what I send as she will “play” the Live Photos that iPhones do; obviously I’ll say things to make my son look at the camera or prompt him to smile. This is the wrong thing as she will call the photo forced or question why there’s a cat on the bed in the background as LittleRen is asthmatic etc.
With my Papa dying, I offered to help so much including with emptying the house. My parents stated that it was so much work, it was hard on them emotionally and physically, they can’t cope. I offered for me and my husband to go, even my husband alone with my dad to do the manual labour and they refused the offer and then the messages.
Everyone says I ought to stop trying and they are probably right. I just can’t let go. I’ve read back over this and it just reads that she ignores me, so why am I bothering? I don’t know.