So sorry.
I had a miscarriage at 10 weeks, 6 year ago, at this time I only had my son, he was 2, I now have 2 other girls but I lost our baby at 10 weeks, it hit me HARD because we seen the heartbeat at 6 weeks, I was round my mother in laws picking our son up and told her there's no heartbeat and it'll happen naturally, I remember breaking down and as my husband was leading me back to the car to go home my awful sister in law who happened to be round the house, she lost her daughter at 34 weeks threw the photo of her daughter that was on her mums fireplace at us and said that's what losing a baby looks like, you didn't lose a baby, you just lost cells and I was being very selfish towards people who lost "real" babies.
I lost another baby 2 years ago, I was only 7 weeks, i mean I say only, a baby is a baby after all but I was too scared to show emotion to anyone but my husband after that.