I have finally caught up on the thread.
Some of my thoughts:
1. The tv show- some who was deliberately harming babies might be checking to see if another, more senior colleague (may have made that it up) if it referenced the cause of death for one of the babies you hurt to see if anyone else had picked up in the similarities.
2. Someone who could have deliberately harmed babies may not have done so in cold blood. Maybe they saw something in these vulnerable young babies that they just could not tolerate (or especially tolerate having these feelings themselves) and, for whatever reason, had to act out to stop it as it was unbearable. I bet they wouldnt really recognise them self as someone who could have harmed a baby and would probably be in deep denial about such things. They would probably (just a hypothesis) identify with being a kind and well qualified nurse who saved babies, not harmed them and be really invested in being that sort of person. That cognitive dissonance has got to drive you mad and be really really hard to manage. If someone how would do this was found guilty, I imagine there’s be a part of them that would be relieved, once they’d worked through their denial. Splitting off parts of yourself is really hard to keep up. It always leaches out some way or another.
Some of my thoughts:
1. The tv show- some who was deliberately harming babies might be checking to see if another, more senior colleague (may have made that it up) if it referenced the cause of death for one of the babies you hurt to see if anyone else had picked up in the similarities.
2. Someone who could have deliberately harmed babies may not have done so in cold blood. Maybe they saw something in these vulnerable young babies that they just could not tolerate (or especially tolerate having these feelings themselves) and, for whatever reason, had to act out to stop it as it was unbearable. I bet they wouldnt really recognise them self as someone who could have harmed a baby and would probably be in deep denial about such things. They would probably (just a hypothesis) identify with being a kind and well qualified nurse who saved babies, not harmed them and be really invested in being that sort of person. That cognitive dissonance has got to drive you mad and be really really hard to manage. If someone how would do this was found guilty, I imagine there’s be a part of them that would be relieved, once they’d worked through their denial. Splitting off parts of yourself is really hard to keep up. It always leaches out some way or another.