I really want to believe she's not guilty, but I also want to believe she's guilty. This is such a crazy, sad case.
I will say though, I think my unconscious bias is showing sometimes. Her being the blonde-haired, blue-eyed, angel of Chester saving sick babies as the face of the unit does this case no favours. Everyone loves a blonde-haired blue-eyed girl a la the 'Missing White Woman' phenomenon. We see that shit and think of our little siblings and their big eyes and baby blonde hair and we see innocence. A seemingly middle-class family and previously stainless record cements that.
She's obviously not an Allitt type - if she was, they'd have brought up all the Munchhausen shit by now. People with Munchhausen by Proxy tend to be munchies themselves first. No university friends, no childhood friends, no family members or neighbours, no colleagues or ex-boyfriends have said anything about her. Good or bad. Usually we get a 'she's such a lovely girl' or 'they were a loner'. Not a peep. This is the kind of case where everyone wants to come out of the woodwork and talk shit through any channel that'll take them, even if there's an embargo, it gets out sometime if someone really has an axe to grind and wants to make their mouth go.
She's obviously not insane. If she was, we'd be hearing about things being held up with constant psychiatric assessments and reports, or her being held at a secure unit/hospital whilst awaiting trial. If she did it, she will have been considered to be in sound mind.
If she did do it, I don't understand why she got so fucking sloppy. I don't think she's a sociopath. Sociopaths are way less intelligent, way more chaotic and disorganised, and typically can't stick to the kind of schooling and hard work Lucy would have had to do to get where she was. Her behaviour screams more psychopathy than sociopathy, so that's why I find it so crazy that she got sloppy! It makes me suspicious for her,not against her. Multiple tries on the same babies, trauma and violence instead of her usual quiet methods she began with (that were working pretty well sadly). The deaths would have been more spaced out. She would have put way more effort into alibis, she'd have known not to shit up her search history.
We're not talking about a stupid woman here. Nursing requires so much academic study now as well as vocational training, and the work she did on top of that to get into the specific job with the specific responsibilities that she was undertaking means she obviously had the mental capacity to know how to cover her tracks.
A little bit of me wants to believe that the evidence was in her house because she was piecing together some grand conspiracy of higher-ups trying to cover up inadequate care and incompetency. This is the age of inquests which have decided thousands of mothers and babies have died needlessly due to NHS and NMC bullshit. So many hospitals have too. many. NICU and maternity. Deaths.
And the prosecution dropping a few sneaky charges to make sure no recovered babies they couldn't tie to Lucy taint their case? I'm just uncomfortable.
I'm the worst for Facebook stalking. I start off stalking one of my boyfriend's friends he wants me to meet, suddenly I'm stalking the sister of some dude she went to secondary school with. So that's pretty common saddo behaviour.
With how damning the prosectution have been, the defense have got to have something up their sleeve, otherwise it's guilty guilty guilty.