You can still forge any life you want in any country you want, without him. It will take time, especially missing the children, but just concentrate solely on you right now. Don't let any other thought in. Just do hour by hour, then day by day and then week by week. Keeping busy is the best and go for walks (in your area) to keep the body active. I know it all sounds so easy me saying it, but I've been exactly where you are. Gone and blocked with no real explanation....after 10 years. In 2 months time, which sounds a million years away now, your outlook and mindset will be so much clearer and you'll have made plans of your own for your own goals.
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KHM has a tide mark around her no make up face..... Just to not derail the thread.