completely agree, she seems triggered by the running comments on all her platforms, but trying to mask it as homesickness sadness.
I think she’s having a full-blown relapse currently. Her videos are not doing well in terms of view count, especially compared to Australia vlogs and even the previous Thailand trip. I think she probably feels lost and out of control right now, not sure what to do with her future, etc. hence the insane running regiment and the extremely rigid overplanning of every minute of her day…
Yeah this - and I also got the impression that she was extremely focused on getting a boyfriend/getting into a relationship. So now that she actually has a boyfriend she might feel a bit lost/fall into a bit of a hole.
She's always been extremely goal-driven after all, and at the moment it's not really clear what the next 'big goal' is going to be, I think. Like it was "gotta get into Cambridge like my sister", "gotta finish first in my year at Cambridge", "gotta finish my master's in Cancer, a degree which I don't intend to ever put to any use cause I have no intention of actually working in this field", "gotta run the London marathon", "gotta get a boyfriend". And now it's just, what is the goal now? I'm not saying that everyone needs to pursue a big life goal all the time, absolutely not! But just that for Holly, I think that's what she's always done so far.
I also feel like she's really smug about being completely recovered from her ED, and she seems to view having a boyfriend and being "foodies" together with him as evidence of recovery. Which idk, that doesn't seem like a v healthy or realistic self-assessment to me.