If it’s all the way across I’d say it was something like the other posters say, hair too tight or something else, could even be tension in the muscles?
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Could be folliculitis? (Can't spell, sorry!) @Disneylifeonly
So just as I let myself get excited about my holiday in a few weeks I wiped and I dont know if my cervical discharge is brown or not 
TMI but I’ve put a cotton bud up there to check afterwards and I don’t think it is brown, but what if it is and I just can’t see it?? don’t know if it’s brown or just like quite a dark yellow
TMI but I’ve put a cotton bud up there to check afterwards and I don’t think it is brown, but what if it is and I just can’t see it?? don’t know if it’s brown or just like quite a dark yellowI used to spot for ages after a period sometimes and it was fine. The old blood can stay up there for quite a while xxSo just as I let myself get excited about my holiday in a few weeks I wiped and I dont know if my cervical discharge is brown or not
It’s not brown on my pants and not brown after the cotton bud, do you think if it was really brown I’d see it on the cotton bud immediately after?
Yes I'm sure you would.
Yes i would say so too.
Thanks ladies, I’m spiralling again
only 48 more hours on my own 
does anyone else constantly check for bleeding from anywhere? Last year it was my poo, then it was my wee, now it’s my vag and on a slight side note, sometimes I struggle to get even a cotton bud up there (I know I shouldn’t exactly be putting cotton buds up there in the first place)...is that a sign of vaginismus?
I think it is, I have very similar problems and the more I think or stress over it, the more it clamps up lmao.Thanks ladies, I’m spiralling again
You're probably just tensing up xThanks ladies, I’m spiralling again
It is a problem I have in general, sex I can’t stand and once I tried to have sex with someone and it didn’t even go in but I forced myself to persist
and my smear test last year was horrible. My problems are deeper than health anxiety, I know that, but it’s so so hard to constantly self soothe and comfort myself sorry to go off topic just struggling atm xHave you spoken to the doctor about it? I know there are things they can do to try and help with vaginismus, you shouldn't have to live like thatIt is a problem I have in general, sex I can’t stand and once I tried to have sex with someone and it didn’t even go in but I forced myself to persist
It's a really difficult condition because the more it happens, the more you stress about it and it just perpetuates the cycle sometimes it's literally like I don't even have a hole because it's a brick wall lol.Sorry you’re going through it too! It’s horrible isn’t itHave you spoken to the doctor about it? I know there are things they can do to try and help with vaginismus, you shouldn't have to live like that
No I haven’t spoken to the dr about it but I’m trying to tackle the emotional side of it with my counsellor. Have you spoken to a dr about it?I hope you get some help from your counsellorSorry you’re going through it too! It’s horrible isn’t it
No I haven't, I tend to avoid the doctor like the plague unless I really have to lol. Tbh I'm so burned out these days with my health, because I'm at the point where I'm always worried about around 10 different cancers at the time, I can't tell what is real anymore and what I *should* go about if that makes sense? It's kinda like, well I can't go about 10 things, so what is important and what isn't. I just literally have no idea so I avoid it until the panic gets too intense. I don't know how 'normal' people do it. I can see things that aren't even there now. It's horrendous not being able to trust your own mind.Totally sympathise! I just keep flitting from one thing on my vag to the next, thinking to myself well it can’t ALL be cancer, but then the next thought is well what if one of them is?? Which one do I pick as the one with the problem you know?I hope you get some help from your counsellor
as soon as I do trust myself, like today, as soon as I try and feel okay, something else happens
Exactly thatTotally sympathise! I just keep flitting from one thing on my vag to the next, thinking to myself well it can’t ALL be cancer, but then the next thought is well what if one of them is?? Which one do I pick as the one with the problem you know?
as soon as I do trust myself, like today, as soon as I try and feel okay, something else happens
and you know that even if you did go and get all your worries tested (which they'd never do anyway) you'd just find something new! I just don't know how you are supposed to get better from this. It just gets worse and worse, I started with episodes of worry over one thing, that would last a few months then I'd get a break. Then no breaks and now up to 10 things at the same time with no breaks. It's just relentless I told myself enough was enough when I got the all clear results from my colonoscopy in December and what happened in jan? I started worrying about my vagExactly that
I wish I could give you a hug and a way to make it go away for you It's always the wayI told myself enough was enough when I got the all clear results from my colonoscopy in December and what happened in jan? I started worrying about my vag
Our brains are basically permanently in hazard perception mode like in your driving test lmao. It's like one thing is fine and it's like "right buddy, so what else could get us!?" and if you do have a moment of calm you start panicking that you are too calm lmfao. You too this is like me with my discharge today, is it brown or just normal yellow? I think I’m just seeing things but how do I know if I am or not??
That was me at the weekend, I was so on edge with nothing to worry about! So probably a good thing I’ve totally spiralled todayIt's always the way
Do you ever notice something and then start the spiral of - omg has this always been like this!? and if someone tells you it has/probably has, you're like, well how would I have not noticed? Surely I would have! (especially as we notice everything lmao) but my boyfriend always says, everything was new at some point and the chances of all these things you've noticed appearing the day you notice them, are slim to none. So I guess even if it appeared a week ago, that's a whole week of not noticing - so if it could be a week, it could have been your whole life. If that makes sense lol. It is reassuring but I'm so bad for it. I'm like you with my vag at the minute lol. First there was the fleshy sort of curved wall on the upper canal wall and now I'm worrying that my outer bits and urethra look like an alien lifeform ahahahahahahaha. I've genuinely never looked at it before and looked a few weeks ago and saw loads of fleshy lumpy bits outside the entrance and was like - WTF IS THAT!? It's so embarassing how little I know about our anatomy loooolthis is like me with my discharge today, is it brown or just normal yellow? I think I’m just seeing things but how do I know if I am or not??
That was me at the weekend, I was so on edge with nothing to worry about! So probably a good thing I’ve totally spiralled today
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