Same, I think it's because they are so visual. I have the weirdest bleeping mole (looks nothing like a mole tbh) on my toe that I first noticed just under 5 years ago. I've been so many times about it and they always say it's OK. However, it has literally being changing the entire time I've had it, that plus the fact that it's already so strange looking, just shits me up so bad. I really want to go and ask about it again but the whole process is so traumatising and they always treat me like a insane time waster. But, it's all well and good saying something 'looks OK' when you don't have to live with it y'know? I bet if it was on them they wouldn't feel the same. The amount of my life I have already given up to the terror over it is horrendous. But I know that even if I begged and pleaded for them to remove it and best case scenario it was fine, I'd just move on to other things like I always do. I mean don't get me wrong, out of all the worries I've ever had, this one is the worst, I think because like I say it's visual and I can't forget about it like passing symptoms. It doesn't have any of the classic signs of being dodgy other than the fact it's got a little bigger every year, but Google literally tells you *any* change is bad and I know that is bollocks and 90% of the time it's fine, but it's so hard to accept when the media big you up to panic and then when you go, they are like Nah you are ok. It's like, well how can you be sure? And of course because it's been so long I'm convinced I'm doomed now, everyone tells me there's no way I could have it this long and not already be dead - but you always read about those rare cases :'(
Also please no one tell me to demand a biopsy. It just makes me think you think it's bad and I can't handle it lol.