Yes, I recognised you too from the threads of our Brummy kweeeen! and I felt so bad for you, I’m sorry you’ve been through such a rough time and been so lonely. I know an anonymous gossip site isn’t like having people in your life, but you can always chat to someone on here.This resonates so much. I recognise you from the Brummy Mummy threads I think? Name rings a bell.
I’ve doomscrolled and found ‘friends’ have met up over bank holiday weekend near my town and didn’t even think to ask how I am or if I’d like to join...
It’s like a punch in the gut. I always think there must be something wrong with me. Am I not fun? I’d like to think I am?
I was very low last night.
I often question if I’m as nice/fun as I think I am, because I don’t know why people choose others over me to spend time. There’s this one girl I used to work with who was a nightmare, everyone moaned about her and rolled their eyes about her. I organised a few things outside of work with a group of 4 of us who were good friends and the others asked me not to invite her, which didn’t sit right with me as I felt like I was being mean but it was their idea! Fast forward a few years and none of us work together anymore, and the annoying girl and one of the others are always together, BFFs with their kids etc. And the annoying girl also seems to have an amazing group of friends who surprised her for her birthday, did her an amazing hen weekend etc. I don’t know how that happened that I’ve ended up without people while she, who always annoyed everyone, has so many friends! Maybe I’m the awful one after all?!?