EddieBeds
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Thank you for the thoughts
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Sending hugs to those who want/need them.
I did a mock exam for my course and passed with flying colours - just hoping it’s the same when I get to the real thing in a few weeks.
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Mr Beds is still not in a great place. He’s told me (and others) he’s not taking his medication as he doesn’t need it. Medication isn’t necessary for everyone but is part of his jigsaw. Also makes it feel really uncertain as to how much longer this mania will last when he’s not on medication - other episodes he’s not gone cold turkey from medication so hasn’t been so prolonged. At the moment it’s a watch and wait as he will eventually run out of steam.
I also get for him there is complex feelings wrapped up in it all from unresolved stuff from his childhood etc and imagine it must feel wearing to have to take medication, not just the stigma but also side effects etc. While I’ve had to be on medication/self manage conditions which are ‘invisible’ it’s not been shrouded in stigma like mental health can be.
His friends have been in touch telling me he doesn’t sound like him in the way he’s talking/acting with them but none of them know what else I/we can do when he won’t engage. Bipolar UK have been really supportive, they’ve said his decision to end things is very impulsive and ‘typical’ of behaviour when in mania but doesn’t make it any less hurtful. They’ve also got some resources for further down the road.
Had the first Early Help appointment this week so feel there is something happening while waiting for the above to settle but it’s just hard, especially because he’s lost insight he doesn’t like anything I say re safeguarding the kids. Again I get it on a level because he’s convinced himself of another reality but makes interactions really hard when I get a volley of verbal aggression. I just miss him and want the ‘imposter’ to go if that makes sense.
I also get for him there is complex feelings wrapped up in it all from unresolved stuff from his childhood etc and imagine it must feel wearing to have to take medication, not just the stigma but also side effects etc. While I’ve had to be on medication/self manage conditions which are ‘invisible’ it’s not been shrouded in stigma like mental health can be.
His friends have been in touch telling me he doesn’t sound like him in the way he’s talking/acting with them but none of them know what else I/we can do when he won’t engage. Bipolar UK have been really supportive, they’ve said his decision to end things is very impulsive and ‘typical’ of behaviour when in mania but doesn’t make it any less hurtful. They’ve also got some resources for further down the road.
Had the first Early Help appointment this week so feel there is something happening while waiting for the above to settle but it’s just hard, especially because he’s lost insight he doesn’t like anything I say re safeguarding the kids. Again I get it on a level because he’s convinced himself of another reality but makes interactions really hard when I get a volley of verbal aggression. I just miss him and want the ‘imposter’ to go if that makes sense.
Sending hugs to those who want/need them.
I did a mock exam for my course and passed with flying colours - just hoping it’s the same when I get to the real thing in a few weeks.