Hi! In Canada you can go to a psychologist/psychiatrist without a GP's note. In fact I don't even think that therapy is covered by public insurance. So yes it was paid out of pocket.
Check with your public insurance if you are in another country to see if it's covered.
I recognize former me in all these behaviors... It's exhausting right?
If you have a GP that you like/trust don't be scared to talk to them about it. They might have resources you can check out. You are not wasting their time, it's their job. And if they think that,
duck them! They won't tell you anyway so you'll never know!
Look online for some resources. You might find a therapist near you that way. Don't be scared to call some therapist and ask if they deal with this kind of phobia.
ex:
Hereās how to find a psychiatrist based on your needs and situation ā such as budget, insurance, concerns, and child and family therapy needs.
www.healthline.com
Know you need a psychiatrist's help, but not sure where to start? You're not alone. Our guide will assist you in finding the right match.
www.talkspace.com
Hope I could help. Don't hesitate to ask me more questions!