My entry for the Elle fanfic
"Dear diary,
Today I have taken my future into my own hands. I've been heavily hinting to Eric that we really should get engaged. I don't know how many white dresses and pale blue items I can buy before he gets the idea that I'm ready to start planning a wedding? Mentioning how the mosquito net over our bed is a veil! All my something blue gel manicures!
After our anniversary , my birthday, Grismas, New Years Eve , and Valentine's day all passed Sans engagement ring. I knew I had to do something drastic. I can't wait until our anniversary again. Second anniversaries never work out well for me. Eventhough everything was perfect with Joe he still left. I need to lock Eric down now before he gets the idea to leave. After V-Day came and went and no Harry Winston ring was gifted to me I knew I had to do the work. Birth control pills are now in the dumpster. No one needs to know! Our trip to Destin with his friends is coming up and everyone knows canoodling on vacation always helps with conception. I will throw off the tattlers by having Ros`e with my mom and taking a romantic trip to the vineyard. I'm sure if I express how surprised I am he and everyone else will believe my birth control failed. He can't be mad at me when it was just bad luck, I know this is what he really wants he's just too shy to come out and say it.
His parents are so traditional and conservative and have been so ready for him to settle down and provide grandchildren they will jump at the chance to convince him to marry me. There is no way this will fail now. It doesn't matter that he's tried to dump me 3 times now, I will soon be carrying his progeny! My womb will be swollen with his seed! He is 40 and his mom keeps hinting about grandkids. It will make everyone so happy. And our post baby wedding will be all the more special with little Vera Rose as the flower girl.
Xoxo
Elle"