Hi! I’m joining too! Didn’t drink yesterday as I felt like crap from New Years. Like others I’ve drunk way too much over lockdown. Never drank at home until I moved in with my partner 4 years ago, then it’s slowly crept in as it feels more social to drink with him. I still used to do a few booze free nights a week until lockdown and then it’s slowly crept up.
i was furloughed in April so was the next door neighbour who we’re very friendly with (they live alone and now wfh and weren’t mixing with others at all, nor were we until the rules permitted in late summer. None of us saw any family/other friends from March to July and only met outside for the first few weeks like an odd summer holiday; not still doing this now! So transmitting risk was low) so that turned to sunshine drinks in the garden most afternoons evenings and bbqs once my partner finished working (from home).
I returned to work in June but able to wfh entirely so a 5.30 gin and tonic to separate the work dat from from our evening time became a fast habit so we kept drinking every day. It’s got slightly earlier with the light fading too. I don’t tend to drink after dinner, but do with dinner so I do have a stop button but I know the levels were drinking at can be really ill advised for a women and it’s now such a deep habit I don’t want to end up reliant on drink; I’ve seen the impact that has on a family member and a friend with an alcoholic parent. We can easily drink 3-4 double ‘s before/ with dinner at about 19.30ish. Most days it’s 2 or 3 drinks, but some nights we go silly and do cocktails and mix drinks and get carried away; that’s maybe once a month but it does really affect my sleep and I feel so groggy, crap, anxious and grumpy the next day.
I want to find the motivation to start running once it’s warmer but i know I won’t get up early to do it, and if it’s a choice between a 5.30pm run or tipple I know which I’ll pick at the moment! So reducing my intake will hopefully make that choice easier when the weather improves, and can have one or two a few days a week but not 3 every night. In short started some silly habits that I want to break. I already want a drink as my body is telling me its time but I won’t
I think the biggest tell I’m unhappy with my drinking is that if most of my friends/family asked id feel uncomfortable sharing the truth with them, to the point I might lie twist the truth or downplay it but no one really asks. Does anyone else feel like that about their drinking?