Sending you hugs. Please be kind to yourself this weekend.It is my dad’s birthday tomorrow. The third one without him. I still sometimes think he has gone away for a while and will be back soon. He died young, early 60s, in what could have been avoided. He was healthy too. It was a tragedy. He never got to meet my baby boy either, his first grandchild. Life is such a weird one.![]()
Sorry to hear this. It is such a horrible time. How about going to the GP or trying grief counselling?my mum died suddenly 10 months ago. the panic attacks lately have been so bad. my brain feels quite jumbled and forgetful. I get really panicked and scared of dying too. I am still struggling with sleep and last night I had a terrible night of fear and panic. It's just not getting any better it's getting worse. The thought that she's been gone nearly a year is surreal and frightening. I am really struggling to know what to do to stay calm and get through this. I am not crying as much just getting panic attacks.
I understand this completely. It’s bloody hard and exhausting isn’t it. My mum would hate how much I still struggle with my grief for her but then I have to tell myself that I do what I can and that’s ok.It's a bleeping shitshow - my parents died the best part of a decade ago and I've been suffering from what I can only describe as repetitive grief depression ever since. I just cannot seem to shake it, my parents were good people and they definitely wouldn't have wanted to see me like this - but it's like I just can't help it.
It was one of their anniversaries last month and I just couldn't get the music from their funeral out of my head
I'm so sorry. I had all of this too - the night time panic attacks were absolutely petrifying and the jumbled up brain forgetfulness. It's so strange. I had to go to two different GPs before I got the medication I needed to help. Could you try your doctor (as suggested above)? I really had to push myself to go but was eventually glad I did. If you are chronically sleep deprived it makes it all so much harder to manage.my mum died suddenly 10 months ago. the panic attacks lately have been so bad. my brain feels quite jumbled and forgetful. I get really panicked and scared of dying too. I am still struggling with sleep and last night I had a terrible night of fear and panic. It's just not getting any better it's getting worse. The thought that she's been gone nearly a year is surreal and frightening. I am really struggling to know what to do to stay calm and get through this. I am not crying as much just getting panic attacks.
So sorry for your loss @BonBon27 🩵Eight years today since I lost my mum. A weird day. I miss her every day, nothing different happens on this day, but somehow it’s got a huge weight attached to it
And of course, the ever lonely feeling of knowing that there are probably only a handful of other people who know what day it is, and all those “love you, here for you, so sorry for your loss” people who were there for the first couple of weeks when she died have long forgotten![]()
I bought some daffodils yesterday as she loved those, and my husband bought me a beautiful bunch of roses this morning as they were her favourite. I’m having lunch with my sister soon, which I’m sure mum would have come along to if she were here. Thank you 🩷So sorry for your loss @BonBon27 🩵
The anniversaries are so hard. Look after yourself today. On the anniversary of my Mum’s passing I like to do something that she loved, like buying fresh flowers!
Was there anything your mum loved?X
My mum died 8 years ago in May.I bought some daffodils yesterday as she loved those, and my husband bought me a beautiful bunch of roses this morning as they were her favourite. I’m having lunch with my sister soon, which I’m sure mum would have come along to if she were here. Thank you 🩷