MakeDamnSure
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Sending love to everyone on here.
I lost my mum in 2007 to cancer when I was 18, she was 48. My dad was never in the picture so it was a massive loss. It was incredibly quick from diagnosis to death and I still feel a bit shell shocked from it all to be honest. My heart aches that she never saw me grow up let alone meet my children. Every happy occasion in my life since then has been tinged with sadness too and trying to navigate being a mother without her has been hard to say the least.
I don’t dream about her anymore and I feel like I can’t remember her voice at times. And then something that she used to say to me as a child will come tumbling out of my mouth and I can hear it clear as day.
I turn 35 soon and I’m dreading turning 36 as that marks the time where I will have lived more of my life without her than with her. I also get hung up on the fact that I could only have 13 years left or if I think about my children having 13 years left with me. Sorry for the long rambling post, I never really speak about this as none of my friends can really relate.
I lost my mum in 2007 to cancer when I was 18, she was 48. My dad was never in the picture so it was a massive loss. It was incredibly quick from diagnosis to death and I still feel a bit shell shocked from it all to be honest. My heart aches that she never saw me grow up let alone meet my children. Every happy occasion in my life since then has been tinged with sadness too and trying to navigate being a mother without her has been hard to say the least.
I don’t dream about her anymore and I feel like I can’t remember her voice at times. And then something that she used to say to me as a child will come tumbling out of my mouth and I can hear it clear as day.
I turn 35 soon and I’m dreading turning 36 as that marks the time where I will have lived more of my life without her than with her. I also get hung up on the fact that I could only have 13 years left or if I think about my children having 13 years left with me. Sorry for the long rambling post, I never really speak about this as none of my friends can really relate.
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