So I had a first date 1.5 weeks ago and have now seen him a few times since then… some smaller catch ups like quick lunch during the work day, some longer like hanging out at mine and staying up till 1am on a work night when I get up at 5-6am
I have a child and majority care of him so I usually can’t see someone this much but he doesn’t play games and we’ve just been able to make it work. I haven’t slept with him yet but I really really like him. Like a lot. We just click, we have really good meaningful chats but also lots of banter and laughter and I just have such a good time with him. No red flags that I can see so far and a few green ones lol. He gives me compliments but nothing over the top. The problem is, I think because of my dating history I’m just so anxious about it and so worried he’s just going to ditch me out of nowhere and I’ll get hurt. I really don’t think it’s anything to do with him, but I’m worried I’ll ruin it because of me feeling like that. Last night we were talking about online dating and various aspects of it, and he said he wasn’t seeing anyone else, and we talked about ghosting etc. And because of my anxiety about it all I said if you decide you don’t want to see me again can you just let me know and he was like “yeah, but I do” and I was like “yeah but if you change your mind or anything just tell me” and he was like “ok, but I do want to see you again, I like you”.
It just seems too good to be true. And not in a red flaggy way, just that I really feel a connection and I really like him. And I feel like I’m too damaged for him, and he hasn’t done much online dating (I was his second date) so he will for sure find something better. Why am I like this
I really really don’t want to ruin this but I don’t know how to feel secure in it and relax and just let whatever happens play out, and just go with it.