bless you. do what is right for you. If she doesn’t understand I’d say she’s not a very true or supportive friend. if it’s just going to make you feel tit then don’t go. you have a whole life to do these things, they are only postponed for now. Take care of you.
Thank you & yeah I'm gonna call her tomorrow and tell her I'm not going. Sooner rather than later I think cos it's giving me so much stress but your 100% right in what you have said i think I just needed someone to tell me that so I could be sure I'm not overreacting by not going x