I don't understand how a mother would want to be away from her child after he has had a seizure. The universe was telling you to stay with your sick child Toni you're bloody leaving him again soon to swan off on holiday with your ma and da just because you turned 40 this year!! SO WHAT?! You're 40, have a couple of days celebrating then wind your neck in!!! What actually needs to happen to let you have the huge kick in the arse that you need to see that your child NEEDS you to not gallivant off every chance you get. The lifestyle you are trying to lead DOES NOT work when you have a beautiful boy with such complex needs the lifestyle that you want is for people who are either young and single or married with no children!! I'm not saying don't go on holiday to get a break (lord knows everyone needs a break) what I am saying is don't go on 10 holidays a year plus breaks and weekends away and leave that poor boy with people who cannot look after him properly. He NEEDS his parents to be there and parent him. Just because you have a special needs child does not give you a right to think you are entitled to be away from so much. It's absolutely disgusting! And just for the record, all parents are exhausted and need sleep not just you!