It really, really sucks. I’m sorry.
If it wasn't for my partner I'd be so fcking scared right now about loneliness over the next few years. My cat is getting older too and gonna be devastated when he goes as I spend like 12 hours a day with him. I can't become friends with my current work colleagues, some of them are ok but I know we're never gonna be close. Children won't fill the gap for me, I know that wouldn't be the right decision to get over this.
Sorry if I'm sounding pessimistic right now, one of those nights.
I just found it so hard to make friends and now I'm scared I'm gonna lose what I have. I think I'm an interesting person but will they think they can no longer relate to me, after entering a baby filled world?
Normally I'm a confident person ready to kick ass but tonight I just feel so low
Any time I message my friend who lives in the US and has a kid, I get really short responses from her even though I ask how her child is, maybe she is just too busy with her now toddler and doesn't mean harm, I see her on Facebook having fun with loads of mothers she's met through work and baby groups
I can see too that my partner has grown apart from some of his friends since they had kids, no falling out just don't see them as much, can't just give them a call and say let's do a mountain hike or something this weekend like we used to.