I did ignore the rules to visit mine at home before he got admitted as I knew he weren't coming out and I have 0 regrets for that. It's my only small blessing. But they were swanning in and out as they liked whilst everyone else on surrounding Wards were dying alone (CT had a nice private side room too)With hindsight I think many of us would have stood up to the hospitals and gone to be with our loved ones at the end but we were following the rules.
You have anger, I have guilt that will never leave me.
Hannah and her family have no idea.