Long story short for me, I was sexually abused as a child until I was 10 years old and it was discovered, he had groomed me to stay quiet and I was in fear of my life as he threatened me with a gun (which I found out when I was older was a toy gun) if I uttered a word of it to anyone. In my teens I self harmed and was suicidal, I was then beaten up one day by my fiancé at the time while I held our 18 month old daughter. So yeah I was in and out of therapy (NHS because not everyone can afford private) most of my life. My last psychologist, which was 2 years ago, decided to end our sessions because I was beginning to retreat into myself. I couldn’t even look at her the entire 1 hour session towards the end because dealing with the abuse alone was making me worse. You don’t just decide yourself you are done. I mean you can and it’s your right to do that but I feel with brummy it’s just a thing. ‘Oh look at me, I am so relatable because I need to see a therapist’. I honest to god wish I could afford a private therapist so I could work on it at my own pace and for however long I needed as NHS only gives you a certain amount of sessions before you need to be referred again if you need more.
Also how bloody big headed is she assuming when she got a certain amount of subs she’d be invited to everything?! The ego on that woman is astounding.