I have BPD. I have no social media and maybe three good friends... No probably just two actually.
I grew up in a disgustingly violent household and then was shipped off to live with my father after my mother finally decided to flee. Living with them was safe physically but mentally they bullied me. I didn't have a stable home until I was 19 when I lived in a house alone for 6 years. I was never asked if I was okay when we had to flee and I was ignored when I aired the abuse I suffered later in my teens.
I suffer daily. Mania last weeks, I have very little self confidence and I am terrified of rubbing off on my kids. I've never kept a relationship over 4 years and every single ones ending I can put down to me pushing them away because I had no idea how to let a man treat me.
My doctor's diagnosed me and then ignored me and I have no friends who suffer in the same ways I do. I genuinely fear I'll never be normal and that terrifies me. I got everything I wanted in life and I'm still so unhappy inside.
I feel like I'm grieving a life I never had, I had to grow up so quickly that my teens were more like other people's typical early 20s...
Reading through your experiences made me feel lighter, I've never read so many stories and related to them.