I don’t know if it’s not wanting to admit it, I think she genuinely sees herself completely differently to how she looks and everything she thinks and believes is true. I know not the same, but I have diagnosed body dysmorphia and I don’t understand what I look like - the way I would describe myself is totally different to how other people would describe me. Every time I see myself whether it be in the mirror, a photo, or video I struggle to recognise what I really look like, at the height of struggling I almost felt like like there was multiple versions of myself. It’s hard to explain but If I look at myself long enough, I can easily convince myself I look totally different to what I’m physically seeing. I can only think Fiona’s mind does something similar.