Ughh my heart aches for Saf. I lost my little girl when she was 3 days old, we also had a very poorly little boy 12 months before we lost her. He was misdiagnosed several times and we nearly lost him. Thank god we didn’t. I had counselling after his illness because I was so angry all the time, but after our daughter, every time I was offered it - which was all the bloody time, I just thought what is the point, it won’t bring her back, she will still be gone. I can imagine that is how saf may well feel - and meds may help with the anxiety/depression, but her baby will still be gone. It’s been 4 years for us now, and still hurts like hell. At least I had my others to carry on for - if we didn’t, I’m sure I wouldn’t still be here. I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t still be with my partner either if he’d behaved like Ash is - I also didn’t like staying in bed because you fall asleep and then relive it all over again when you wake up. I really feel for her, so much. Ugh it’s horrific