I'm so glad you had a nice time with your sister over the weekend. I absolutely understand that feeling of all being normal and then thinking "oh wait, you have done so much to hurt us all" it’s hard to reconcile the two faces of that one person sometimes. Great to hear your sister is doing the zoom meetings, I know my mum has been doing them too, and "hosting" them as well, as she leaves her notes for them about her house at times. But she’s been in AA in the past and still drinking so
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but sometimes I think you just have to take what you can get. That afternoon with your sister is a good memory, and it’s important for me that I try and keep the good parts and remember them and not be suspicious and worried all the time, as I find that absolutely exhausting.