So sorry to read everyone else’s messages and sorry to be a burden on this thread but need somewhere to write down my feelings…
I’m having such a shitty week…
1. I hate the job I’m in at the moment, the workload isn’t shared equally and I do a lot more than others. Also the managers don’t seem to care or want to do anything about it. The money is shit too. I miss my old job so so much, keep having dreams about it and waking up sad I’m not there anymore.
2. I have builders in my house currently doing work on the downstairs and every night I’ve come home to their rubbish all over the floor (I accept things like dust, screws and plaster etc but don’t appreciate empty greggs coffee cups and wrappers). They are so disrespectful and know that we are living there whilst the work is being done. It just really upsets me because we are paying them a lot of money and I wouldn’t do it to their home.
3. I’m currently over halfway in my third pregnancy in the last year, he is my rainbow baby after suffering two losses since summer 2020. I found Baby Loss Awareness Week quite overwhelming and sad and I can’t stop thinking about the ones I lost. I cry sometimes randomly for no reason. I’m not enjoying this pregnancy, I’m trying but failing. I worry all the time. It’s mentally exhausting. I’ve spend stupid money on private scans but can’t really afford anymore right now. We’ve had the all clear so far, but I still can’t wait until he’s in my arms and I know he’s safe.
4.My boyfriend told me the other week he’s going to stay with his family this Xmas (we’d already made plans with my family as we went with his last year) so now I’m going to be 7 months pregnant and spending our last Xmas as a couple on my own with my family. We’ve been together 5 years and only spent one Xmas together so far (last year) his excuse is that when the baby is here next year, we are going to be home for at least the next 5-10 years. I’m trying hard to let it go and not to cause an argument because quite simply I don’t need the stress right now. He’s being selfish though.
I know they seem and are 1st world problems, but I can’t stop crying this week. I’ve had enough of work today. Have a massive headache. Can’t wait to finish at 5, get a McDonald’s and get into bed xxx
I’m having such a shitty week…
1. I hate the job I’m in at the moment, the workload isn’t shared equally and I do a lot more than others. Also the managers don’t seem to care or want to do anything about it. The money is shit too. I miss my old job so so much, keep having dreams about it and waking up sad I’m not there anymore.
2. I have builders in my house currently doing work on the downstairs and every night I’ve come home to their rubbish all over the floor (I accept things like dust, screws and plaster etc but don’t appreciate empty greggs coffee cups and wrappers). They are so disrespectful and know that we are living there whilst the work is being done. It just really upsets me because we are paying them a lot of money and I wouldn’t do it to their home.
3. I’m currently over halfway in my third pregnancy in the last year, he is my rainbow baby after suffering two losses since summer 2020. I found Baby Loss Awareness Week quite overwhelming and sad and I can’t stop thinking about the ones I lost. I cry sometimes randomly for no reason. I’m not enjoying this pregnancy, I’m trying but failing. I worry all the time. It’s mentally exhausting. I’ve spend stupid money on private scans but can’t really afford anymore right now. We’ve had the all clear so far, but I still can’t wait until he’s in my arms and I know he’s safe.
4.My boyfriend told me the other week he’s going to stay with his family this Xmas (we’d already made plans with my family as we went with his last year) so now I’m going to be 7 months pregnant and spending our last Xmas as a couple on my own with my family. We’ve been together 5 years and only spent one Xmas together so far (last year) his excuse is that when the baby is here next year, we are going to be home for at least the next 5-10 years. I’m trying hard to let it go and not to cause an argument because quite simply I don’t need the stress right now. He’s being selfish though.
I know they seem and are 1st world problems, but I can’t stop crying this week. I’ve had enough of work today. Have a massive headache. Can’t wait to finish at 5, get a McDonald’s and get into bed xxx