this last cycle I truly thought this was it. I posted on here around 8dpo and said I didn’t have any symptoms, but the next day they all hit me! I had cramping which I never get unless it’s 24hrs before AF. I was so sure. So to then take a test and it’s a BFN truly broke me.Haha we are similar!
He has children already so he is highly unlikely to be the problem although I know it can happen. I badly want everything to be fine with us but then I guess they can't help as to why its not happening if so, so that frightens me a bit too.
I have also said I feel like giving up a few times now, that I can't do this anymore and when I feel like that I mean it. When my period comes I just feel so bad. Last month i truly felt like my heart was physically hurting and breaking with pain. And I just think I can't do this to myself anymore. But then I think about it possibly meaning me never having a child of my own and that thought kills me... And I guess that's what makes me carry on. I truly truly have so much admiration for those women that do this for years, they are so strong.
I was told I have PCOS but the nurse I saw on Monday didn’t believe in that diagnosis. It seems not only do I have no idea what’s going on with me, nor do the health professionals! All my tests so far have come back completely normal as well as the OH. It feels like we are stuck in limbo and I don’t know if I can continue with it much longer. Doesn’t help that I’m such a perfectionist!