TTC #4

[Gossipgirl79]

Hello all you lovelies Not sure I’m in the right place, but I don’t want to be insensitive over on the miscarriage page. (my usual place)

Long story short…I had an early mc in the summer, a mmc in the autumn…first cycle TTC after all that and I have the faintest, faintest line on a first response. But I just don’t believe it yet.

I promised my husband I wouldn’t test constantly or early (not due af until Monday) but I just couldn’t help myself…I kind of knew, I “feel” the way I felt the other times. But it’s too early to tell him. And none of my friends are at the stage in life, so I thank you ladies for letting me put this here.

 

[Maygirl2022]

*TW* (sorry new this and don’t know how to hide the image )
Further to my post earlier in the week, still not been feeling right (early MC on 9th Dec, no period yet but have tested negative since) . Tested this evening, what do you make of this result? Faint line or evap? Thank you x

 

[Motherofpugs]

*TW* (sorry new this and don’t know how to hide the image )
Further to my post earlier in the week, still not been feeling right (early MC on 9th Dec, no period yet but have tested negative since) . Tested this evening, what do you make of this result? Faint line or evap? Thank you x

That looks like a positive to me. Can you do a FRER? Should show up pretty clear on that.

 

[Maygirl2022]

That looks like a positive to me. Can you do a FRER? Should show up pretty clear on that.

Going to grab some tomorrow

 

[PunkRocker]

Afternoon everyone.

Longtime lurker but I feel so awful today that it seemed like the right time for my first post. I feel like I have no right to complain really, we're still quite early in the TTC process but it already feels so disheartening.
We're both 33 and have been trying since we got married in September last year. I'm tracking ovulation and am getting used to working out what my cycle is actually like after being on the pill since I was 16. No joy so far and usually AF arrives, I feel a bit disappointed but I start thinking about the next month and move on.
Had my booster in the middle of December and I think it must have messed me about a bit. My peak has been on CD14 since starting tracking but it was on CD12 last month and not as high as usual. I didn't dwell too much on it and with it being Christmas and having a break from work we DTD more than usual without thinking too much about it.
AF is due to arrive on Monday but I woke up today with cramps and backache and I just lost it and haven't really stopped crying all day. I'm sick of peeing in a pot (and still getting it on my hand most of the time!) I'm sick of people seemingly getting pregnant by accident! My nephew is 19 and he's a troubled kid to put it mildly. His 17yr old girlfriend, who he's known all of 5 minutes, is due in August. My brother met his girlfriend NYE 2020 and my niece was born in October last year. I've even got backdated frustration about that today!

I'm sorry for the essay! I just needed a place to vent today. My best friend got pregnant 2 months after her wedding so I know she'll only have well-meaning words with no understanding

 

[Vivian124]

Have you considered you both getting tested to see what's going on? For your age if you're trying more than 12 months it qualifies.

 

[PunkRocker]

Have you considered you both getting tested to see what's going on? For your age if you're trying more than 12 months it qualifies.

Is this for me? It's only been 4 months x

 

[cecedoon1]

Afternoon everyone.

Longtime lurker but I feel so awful today that it seemed like the right time for my first post. I feel like I have no right to complain really, we're still quite early in the TTC process but it already feels so disheartening.
We're both 33 and have been trying since we got married in September last year. I'm tracking ovulation and am getting used to working out what my cycle is actually like after being on the pill since I was 16. No joy so far and usually AF arrives, I feel a bit disappointed but I start thinking about the next month and move on.
Had my booster in the middle of December and I think it must have messed me about a bit. My peak has been on CD14 since starting tracking but it was on CD12 last month and not as high as usual. I didn't dwell too much on it and with it being Christmas and having a break from work we DTD more than usual without thinking too much about it.
AF is due to arrive on Monday but I woke up today with cramps and backache and I just lost it and haven't really stopped crying all day. I'm sick of peeing in a pot (and still getting it on my hand most of the time!) I'm sick of people seemingly getting pregnant by accident! My nephew is 19 and he's a troubled kid to put it mildly. His 17yr old girlfriend, who he's known all of 5 minutes, is due in August. My brother met his girlfriend NYE 2020 and my niece was born in October last year. I've even got backdated frustration about that today!

I'm sorry for the essay! I just needed a place to vent today. My best friend got pregnant 2 months after her wedding so I know she'll only have well-meaning words with no understanding

I recently attended Gynae after 1 year TTC, I came off the pill (Yasmin) in 2020 & he told me to take 6 months off my “trying time” as it messes with your cycle so much. I don’t know if that helps any but I wish someone had told me that before I went back on it after I had my first baby as I would’ve chose a diff contraceptive hd I known. Sending hugs as it’s a difficult and frustrating time.

 

[PunkRocker]

I recently attended Gynae after 1 year TTC, I came off the pill (Yasmin) in 2020 & he told me to take 6 months off my “trying time” as it messes with your cycle so much. I don’t know if that helps any but I wish someone had told me that before I went back on it after I had my first baby as I would’ve chose a diff contraceptive hd I known. Sending hugs as it’s a difficult and frustrating time.

That's interesting, thank you. I was most recently on Triregol but I think I've taken every pill in existence at some point or another, my doctor seemed to be constantly changing my prescription!
I originally stopped taking my pill in June 2021 as that's when we legally got married with a blessing and reception planned for September. So I stopped taking it to get a headstart on getting it out of my system. But my cycle ended up being all over the place and I didn't want to risk having a period during the wedding or honeymoon so I went back on it for a couple of months. I suppose that faff wasn't advisable. But strangely enough, my cycles have been pretty regular since stopping the second time

 

[laserk]

New here (made a new account to stay anonymous) Super depressed today. Been TTC for about 4 years. First 2 kids were super easy and fell pregnant within a month. Third took 6 years and 2 early miscarriages and one at 16 weeks. But then I got my rainbow. Wanted one more. I have PCOS which has been debated between my Gynae and GP. They can't decide whether I have or not.

December 2021 - first time in years I had EWCM positive opks, DTD on the right days. Fast forward to this month and testing. 8 bfps on Tuesday night. Those 12 hours, pure joy. Then realized the tests were the wrong way, I knew something was weird but was just so happy. Got out another pack of tests and low and behold bfn after bfn.

So depressing. Everything seems to be going wrong. Just feel really weepy and down and fed up with life.

I'm 37 and I know I should have given up a while ago. I am grateful for the 3 that I have. Just can't help wanting one more. I make my mind up that I just can't do this anymore and then think MAYBE next month. But, I want to snap out of this, I just don't know how.

I so badly want another baby. I just can't take the process anymore. I want to be able to stop and call it a day at the same time I don't.
honestly feel so crappy. I just want to cry and cry. Sorry for being depressing, I have nobody that understands what I am going through and basically all tell me to just snap out of it, it's not meant to be. Seems the only things that are meant to be for me these days are just one crap storm after another.

 

[MarshC]

Afternoon everyone.

Longtime lurker but I feel so awful today that it seemed like the right time for my first post. I feel like I have no right to complain really, we're still quite early in the TTC process but it already feels so disheartening.
We're both 33 and have been trying since we got married in September last year. I'm tracking ovulation and am getting used to working out what my cycle is actually like after being on the pill since I was 16. No joy so far and usually AF arrives, I feel a bit disappointed but I start thinking about the next month and move on.
Had my booster in the middle of December and I think it must have messed me about a bit. My peak has been on CD14 since starting tracking but it was on CD12 last month and not as high as usual. I didn't dwell too much on it and with it being Christmas and having a break from work we DTD more than usual without thinking too much about it.
AF is due to arrive on Monday but I woke up today with cramps and backache and I just lost it and haven't really stopped crying all day. I'm sick of peeing in a pot (and still getting it on my hand most of the time!) I'm sick of people seemingly getting pregnant by accident! My nephew is 19 and he's a troubled kid to put it mildly. His 17yr old girlfriend, who he's known all of 5 minutes, is due in August. My brother met his girlfriend NYE 2020 and my niece was born in October last year. I've even got backdated frustration about that today!

I'm sorry for the essay! I just needed a place to vent today. My best friend got pregnant 2 months after her wedding so I know she'll only have well-meaning words with no understanding

I feel very similar to you. We’ve been trying a similar amount of time and I was so upset when I got AF last week as I felt so sure it was going to be positive news. I made the mistake of telling a couple of friends we were trying and I can’t bear the questions! I was on the pill before too I’m hoping that it’s just my cycle working itself out. Feel like I’ve seen so many pregnancy announcements on FB recently too- it’s driving me mad!

 

[JLXRD]

Does anyone ever have moments where they feel like just giving up?

I know I want a baby, and I know my husband does. But this process is so heartbreaking, sometimes I just feel like I can’t continue. Maybe it’s because I can’t imagine it ending in anything but loss anymore, but sometimes I just crave life before we started this journey. When I didn’t have to worry about it.

Then I feel guilty and think it’s never going to happen if I don’t constantly prove how much I want it by not thinking such things.

Just struggling at the moment sadly.

 

[PunkRocker]

I feel very similar to you. We’ve been trying a similar amount of time and I was so upset when I got AF last week as I felt so sure it was going to be positive news. I made the mistake of telling a couple of friends we were trying and I can’t bear the questions! I was on the pill before too I’m hoping that it’s just my cycle working itself out. Feel like I’ve seen so many pregnancy announcements on FB recently too- it’s driving me mad!

I understand completely. I do feel like I've got my hopes up and convinced myself that I've needed a wee more often or that's an unusual twinge I've had. I can't imagine the strength of you ladies who've been trying for much longer than me, it felt unbearable to me yesterday. I guess I'll just chalk it up to a bad day and move on.

 

[marniebeau]

Hey TTC’ers,
I am 12dpo today and need some help.

I got my first vvvvvfl at 9dpo, followed by more positives including a few digital positives on both 10dpo and 11dpo.
My lines didn’t really look like they were getting any darker so I started to worry about a chemical.

This morning at 12dpo with FMU my First Response looked a bit lighter and the Clearblue digital said “Not Pregnant”.
I’ve been devastated all day.

Tonight I’ve taken another Clearblue digital and it is back to saying “Pregnant 1-2”. And the line on the Clearblue line test is still faint but looks a bit darker than yesterdays.

I’m so confused, wtf is going on
I had a doctors appointment which was cancelled and now I can’t get into see my regular doctor until Tuesday.

 

[Vivian124]

It's not any help but i think clear blue can be inaccurate when it comes to opks, I get 2 different results from the same urine sample so i don't have much faith in clear blue

 

[JLXRD]

Hey TTC’ers,
I am 12dpo today and need some help.

I got my first vvvvvfl at 9dpo, followed by more positives including a few digital positives on both 10dpo and 11dpo.
My lines didn’t really look like they were getting any darker so I started to worry about a chemical.

This morning at 12dpo with FMU my First Response looked a bit lighter and the Clearblue digital said “Not Pregnant”.
I’ve been devastated all day.

Tonight I’ve taken another Clearblue digital and it is back to saying “Pregnant 1-2”. And the line on the Clearblue line test is still faint but looks a bit darker than yesterdays.

I’m so confused, wtf is going on
I had a doctors appointment which was cancelled and now I can’t get into see my regular doctor until Tuesday.

Try not to panic, I know it’s easier said than done. 12 dpo is very very early! You could have just been more hydrated when you took the not pregnant one. Your test is currently saying positive so that’s how you’ve got to view atm if you’ve had no bleeding.

Lines getting lighter can be a sign of a chemical but not always, afraid the only thing to do is wait and I suspect a doctor will say the same as nothing will show on a scan until past 6 weeks anyway.

I know it’s really hard and the anxiety and worry is unbearable but it’s totally out of your hands at the moment. I would take another test tomorrow, if it says pregnant, then leave it a few days before taking another as you’ll drive yourself crazy analysing the lines and HCG only doubles every 2 days.

keeping my fingers crossed for you

 

[Gossipgirl79]

Hey TTC’ers,
I am 12dpo today and need some help.

I got my first vvvvvfl at 9dpo, followed by more positives including a few digital positives on both 10dpo and 11dpo.
My lines didn’t really look like they were getting any darker so I started to worry about a chemical.

This morning at 12dpo with FMU my First Response looked a bit lighter and the Clearblue digital said “Not Pregnant”.
I’ve been devastated all day.

Tonight I’ve taken another Clearblue digital and it is back to saying “Pregnant 1-2”. And the line on the Clearblue line test is still faint but looks a bit darker than yesterdays.

I’m so confused, wtf is going on
I had a doctors appointment which was cancelled and now I can’t get into see my regular doctor until Tuesday.

Hello, sorry to hear you’re going through this. Hopefully your doctor will offer you two blood tests 48 hours apart to see if your hcg levels are rising or falling, that’s the best way to know for sure what is going on.

 

[make-mine-whiskey]

Hi everyone, still here still TTC. Currently on my 8th cycle and I think I’m not doing to ovulate currently on CD15 and my strip opks are low, digital is just a flashing smiley for the past 5 days and I’ve usually had my peak and darker lines by now! Why is this process so disheartening I’m getting ridiculed for not getting the booster but study shows it messes up your menstrual cycle and I just can’t bring myself to get it done. I’m double vaccinated and already worried that’s buggered up our chances
Sorry for the long message needed to vent

 

[Usernamecba]

Hi everyone, still here still TTC. Currently on my 8th cycle and I think I’m not doing to ovulate currently on CD15 and my strip opks are low, digital is just a flashing smiley for the past 5 days and I’ve usually had my peak and darker lines by now! Why is this process so disheartening I’m getting ridiculed for not getting the booster but study shows it messes up your menstrual cycle and I just can’t bring myself to get it done. I’m double vaccinated and already worried that’s buggered up our chances
Sorry for the long message needed to vent

Yep same. I came off my pill to start TTC in August and only had one period. I just thought it was cos Ive been on the pill for so long, but now I'm hearing so many people say the vaccine has messed up their cycle! Wish I had realised that before getting my booster last month

 

[make-mine-whiskey]

Yep same. I came off my pill to start TTC in August and only had one period. I just thought it was cos Ive been on the pill for so long, but now I'm hearing so many people say the vaccine has messed up their cycle! Wish I had realised that before getting my booster last month

It’s so difficult isn’t it! You want to stay healthy and have the vaccines but you also want a family

false alarm guys! I got my peak this morning on my digital and my strips are getting darker only 3 days later than normal but better late than never