Hi all, made a new account to comment, not sure if I’m commenting on the right place but I’m a ball of anxiety today and I really need to get it off my chest
Been trying ttc 3 years and the longest I’ve gone between periods is 35 days
Last period was 1 December so should have been due 5 Jan at the latest
The suspense was killing me so decided on the 7 Jan that I would buy a test. I purchased a pack of 2 tests on my lunch break around 12 ish and took it at around 12.30. It was a clear blue test and sure enough after a few mins a cross was displayed for positive
I was so delighted but due previous losses decided to not tell my husband straight away, I thought I’d prefer to tell him after I’d missed my second period as with the losses they were all before this stage.
I didn’t take a picture of the test as didn’t want to run the risk of him finding the picture on my phone
the whole of Friday afternoon/ evening I was on cloud nine. Saturday I had the biggest smile on my face I was so happy.
my husband went out Sunday afternoon so i decided to have another peep at my pregnancy test and when I looked at it it was negative! I felt sick, the horizontal line was still there in the test box but the vertical line had gone. I felt like I was going nuts. I still had the second test in the box so took it and it came up negative. I’m so annoyed with myself that I didn’t take a picture of the first test.
Sunday evening my head felt like cotton wool I couldnt think straight so today while everyone was out at work I went to purchase more tests. I’ve bought cheap brand 2 packs of 2. I came home and have just took a test and it’s the faintest line you literally have to shut one eye and squint with the other to see anything. I actually feel like I’m imagining seeing a line.
Also I’ve purchased 2 clear blue digital tests on Amazon which are arriving at some point today as I feel I need to see it spelled out in black and white one way or the other.
I really thought it would be easier than this keeping it all to myself and dealing with it alone. The anxiety of not knowing is absolutely driving me insane.
sorry about the essay but I haven’t told a soul and needed to get it all out of my head. I just need to know if I’m pregnant or not
I think on the cheaper tests lines can fade just like the strength of the colour on an OPK strip fades after a while. If it was only a faint line to start with it would make it harder to see.
I know it’s hard not to stress but the Clearblue should hopefully help. If you were due on 5th and tested on 8th depending on when you ovulated, your levels of HCG may still be low. Good luck, I hope you get your positive result and peace of mind with the CB.
On the previous topic of the booster - I had mine in December a few days after ovulation. I was having some quite strong pregnancy symptoms (spent a lot of time trawling forums online) and things I’d not had before so close to my period being due. Normally I’ll have some spotting before my period - had none - and then I was late. The only time I have been late in my life was one month in 2009.
I dared to dream - it was Christmas Day morning about 5am and I wanted to know if I could drink. Only had a cheap strip test. No line. Googled the accuracy of the strips and loads of people said they didn’t show an early result. Decided not to drink. Boxing Day came. No period. Took another test. Negative. Decided to avoid alcohol too.
Morning of 27th AF appeared. What a kick in the teeth - a dry Christmas for nothing followed by the
longest period of my life (10 days). My cycle is now definitely messed up because I’d normally be ovulating today and my OPKs are very low, plus no other signs. Just frustrating.
I would say though for people who are unsure - having a booster when you’re not pregnant is a much easier decision than when you are. Also from what I hear from work (NHS) there have been some very ill pregnant women in hospital from COVID causing complications, premature babies and even sadly death. I would still have the jab on balance. Something to consider when you’re weighing up the pros and cons.
last night I got up and felt an alarming amount of wetness, went to the loo and yup there was a significant amount of blood. Kidding myself that perhaps it was just spotting but nah. Pregnancy test today is a bit lighter than yesterday.
I’ve also now think I’m coming down with a uti (sorry if TMI) and think I’m out this month. According to my app I ovulated Monday however I have seen a lot of people say they ovulated later after a miscarriage so if I still have this uti then it’s probably not going to happen this month. 
our bodies can seem so cruel at times. Have you got a good support network around you at home? X
on to cycle 13
. Another cycle of not being pregnant but trying to go into my next cycle positive! It’s been a year of trying for us, so we’re going to ring the doctors soon, to look into tests ect. How naive were we a year ago thinking it would happen straight away. 
(it isn’t)
I knew it would be. Just wanted confirmation before I had some wine tonight.