TTC #4

[Pumpkin Spice]

I've had 3 friends recently announce pregnancies and if I'm 100% honest I didn't feel happy for them. That's something I really struggle with.

 

[Platform9.75]

Just wishful thinking? I'm sure I can see a faint line and it's more visible in person! Should have waited until the morning to test but they arrived and I just couldn't resist. Will retest tomorrow anyway!

 

[Motherofpugs]

Unfortunately I’ll be joining you all again here soon as I’ve had a loss today at 5w6d. Just wondered if anyone knows as I didn’t think to ask at the time, but do you have to wait for a period before you can TTC again or can you TTC again straight after? I will definitely test first to make sure it’s negative.

 

[ProphecyGirl]

Waiting to 14 days without testing is fantastic. Do one in the morning first urine and good luck!

I did a test last night and now as of today I’m 4 days late. The test showed a faint positive… I’m going to take a digital For some reason I don’t want to trust the faint positive line

 

[Dove88]

Spoiler: Trigger

My sister just announced her pregnancy. Just married and presumably successful on their first attempt.

My first emotion was sheer jealousy. I don't think that showed on my face. Of course I'm happy for her but I feel like I've been kicked in the chest.

I cried in the car for 45 minutes.

I'm a horrible person.

 

[Clickbait]

thank you clickbait, I just keep thinking oh well no period is a good sign and trying to put it out of my mind but after 30 seconds I’m thinking about it again
It’s so mentally consuming

hoping we all get our positives soon x

It really is - the drain emotionally and mentally is huge. Changing your lifestyle to optimise your success, tracking everything, spending money on vitamins and lube and test strips, pouncing on your partner even when you’re not in the mood, symptom spotting like a MoFo, trying to keep positive and stress-free and even trying to bloody manifest a pregnancy because you read somewhere that it worked for someone, then feeling like an absolute failure every month, but having to pick yourself up and try again.

Plus the negative emotions of anger and jealousy at other people which are horrible to experience but eat at you over time. I hate that just as much as the feeling like a failure on a monthly basis.

Sorry to drag the tone down guys - it is good to vent in a safe space with people who get it though.

Good luck to everyone for their next/current cycle

 

[Neo2021]

I’m out as predicted. Absolutely gutted even though I knew it was coming.
I’m off to drink as much wine as possible.

Happy New Year everyone. Let’s hope 2022 our year x

 

[moggie96]

I’m feeling very negative this month not sure why - ovulated earlier than usual, CD13 and I’m currently 7dpo. The wait seems to be dragging out so much but at the same time I don’t have any hope for this month! I’m literally surrounded by pregnant friends and people at work and really struggling with it.

Sorry to put a downer on things. Just felt I needed to get it out. I talk to my partner but I don’t want to stress him out whilst we’re trying either. Hope everyone’s ok

 

[FoksiOska]

I was due my period last Saturday. Had nothing all week except a few cramps.. started to get tentatively hopeful. Tentatively because I had a mc earlier this year. And what happens this morning? AF decides to show up with a vengeance a week late

This whole journey can be such a mind f*ck, can't it

 

[JLXRD]

My OPKs are getting darker so think this evening or tomorrow they will be positive.

I am not sure how I feel about it though, I feel like I am meant to feel excited to try again but I just don’t. It’s like I just got over being pregnant and then suddenly not being pregnant. Now trying to be pregnant again feels weird. I know it’s unlikely I will conceive again quickly anyway but it’s like I’ve tried to make myself feel better about my loss by thinking of all of the things I could do not being pregnant, i’ve almost talked myself out of it.

I know I want a baby, I just feel like I now associate being pregnant with all the anxiety I was feeling and I don’t want that again. Ugh, it’s hard.

 

[Heyguysswipeup]

I think I’m having a chemical well.. I know I am.
I feel so stupid for getting so excited in the first place. We told our parents as it’s our first baby/pregnancy and I wouldn’t be able to keep it away from them as we see them so often. My husbands had to go to work today so I’m home alone to ride this out, I can’t stop crying . I just really want to have a baby… how soon can we start trying again?

 

[Lola UK]

Another friend has just announced an unexpected pregnancy she’s only been with him a matter of months, and has gotten pregnant straight away. I can’t even reply just yet, it’s really shocked me. It’s never me with the lucky news. Sorry to be a downer. Hope you all have successful twws 🤍

 

[MrsWolf]

Just need to type out my thoughts… I had my first appointment with the fertility referral today. Looks like we’re going to have to go down the ivf/icsi route due to my husbands sperm analysis but he’s being sent for another analysis just in case! (If these results are ok we can try Clomid etc to help with ovulation). If the analysis is like the previous one and not good, it’ll have to be ivf and won’t funded by the nhs due to my husband having children. My heart broke a little even though I was expecting this outcome.

 

[Lola UK]

I’m mentally bracing myself for all the announcements tomorrow

 

[cecedoon]

A friend just called me , she’s pregnant. She suffered a miscarriage a few months ago & im truly delighted for her but there’s always the feeling of being punched in the gut for myself. Hate feeling it.
Hope everyone is ok

 

[justnosy]

I’ve had very sore boobs since Friday as mentioned in this thread but all negative tests Friday/Sat/Sun.. I am 1 day late and this is pretty clear to me trying not to get too excited as this a miscarried a few weeks ago so know how quick these things can be taken away from you but I can’t believe it

Congratulations! Fingers crossed for you

Well I didn't last until Friday before testing again. I tested with a FRER this morning and there was a really faint line but I wasn't even sure that it looked pink so couldn't be sure what the result was. I used another early digital and it said pregnant.

I'm only 11DPO, AF not due for another couple of days and I've had no symptoms at all, so trying not to get too excited yet!

 

[Celeste]

Did you have any early symptoms or indications @Celeste ? So happy for you

I'm on CD31 and my previous cycles have all been 60 or more days, but I've had really painful cramps all weekend very low in my abdomen. Had been using a hot water bottle constantly. It feels sharper than normal cramps. Something was just niggling at me to take a test. I've also had a really runny nose, and been feeling a bit nauseous but I'm sure it must be too early for that to be connected! I don't know when I ovulated so going off my last period I'd only be 4+1 today.

Just took a FRER.. the line appeared before the control line. This is so unexpected! Sorry, I feel so guilty for celebrating when I know how horribly hard it is to read these announcements, so sending loads of love to anyone reading this with that heavy feeling in their heart.

 

[JLXRD]

Think I am getting my period, which is a relief as it means this cycle was 34 days which is not too long for me and put last ovulation about CD22 which is a bit earlier for me. Hoping this new cycle also isn’t as long and then I can OPK test without losing the will to live after having to test for so many days!

Previous 2 cycles have been early losses/chemicals and lasted 45 and 56 days (before I lost the pregnancy) but I ovulated on CD26 and CD42 on those cycles so this shorter cycle is very welcome.

I don’t know if I’m ready to try again just yet, I might just leave this cycle because I have found it peaceful to not be thinking about TTC all the time this last month.

 

[CNK]

IUI day today, so nervous, such a sleepless night last night, this TWW is gonna be the longest ever

 

[pinkstock]

Tested with a FRER this morning, expecting AF tomorrow. Should have just waited but I had such weird symptoms. Anyway another BFN. Feel so shit, I would have loved it to happen for us now with the run up to Christmas etc. Obviously would love it to happen any time but it would have been nice.