I have lots of thoughts on the “birth journey” vlog. Backstory for those that don’t know/forgot— my son was born with a significant heart defect (HLHS) that we found out about when he was a day old. He was brought to the NICU the night of his birth for low O2 levels and then medically transported to our children’s hospital in Chicago where he had his first open heart surgery at 10 days old- we were in the CCU for 9 weeks the first time. He’s had 3 open heart surgeries total now. At the time, our daughter was 2.5 years old. Here are my thoughts/annoyances from this video:
*the night after my son was born, I insisted my husband go home to our daughter and take her to breakfast in the morning before coming to visit. There’s no need for dad to be there especially for second baby besides severe co-dependency.
* after the allotted time after the C I had a SALAD. I couldn’t stomach anything more. I can’t imagine anything fried!
* when you are told something is not quite right with your newborn and they’re taken to the NICU, you feel like your heart just fell out of your butt. Filming should have been the last thing on their mind if they truly cared.
* I had a lot of PTSD from this video mainly due to the beeping of the machines and literally everything else. When Jenn is talking to the camera and the monitor starts dinging and lighting up, it means something not right is being picked up ie- O2 has dipped, heart rate too high or low, missed heart beat, etc. I wanted to slap her fucking face when she walked away and kept vlogging. My face was glued to that screen when it started beeping.
* how can you eat when your newborn is in the NICU and things haven’t been figured out?? I don’t think I ate a thing for the first month of my sons life. I was too busy praying and crying.
*im sorry, Oliver looks too blue to me- especially around his mouth which shot up huge red flags. Even if he was sent home I would be very skeptical. I pray he doesn’t have any other issues cuz we know his parents won’t be able to give him the care he needs.
*when you have a child who becomes a big brother/sister, their whole world is flipped upside down. Of course Jackson is not going to know what to do. He’s fucking 3 and has had zero discipline. Buckle up trackers!
*after my sons c-section, I couldn’t feel my legs for 4 days (same happened with the c for my daughter). I still demanded to get discharged when my son got transported to the children’s hospital and walked my ass all over Chicago to be at my sons side. It was painful but as a parent you do what you have to. Suck it up Jenny.
*they were in the NICU for what? 4 days? Any time in the NICU is stressful I’m not discounting that. But there are families who have to walk thru hell with their children in the NICU and children’s hospitals for weeks, months and yes even years. FUCK YOU.
*im glad to see J4D stocked up on paprika for the end of the video. Good god, those eyebrows.
I’m sure I’m missing more points but it made me sick that they even filmed while going through this.