Maybe it’s my mental disabilities combined with my hormonal birth control but I’ve been finding myself in extreme highs and lows in terms of mood. Was stupid and didn’t take my meds yesterday and I couldn’t sleep. I learned my lesson. Back on it tonight, I promise.
I find it very depressing that I don’t really have friends in this town still. Moving alone during a pandemic was a horrible idea in terms of MH. I know one girl and we hang out once every month or so but that’s about it. I have social anxiety along with depression and BPD (I like to call them the trifecta lmao) so it’s very hard for me to make friends. I used to try but over time I’ve learned that a lot of people don’t even reach out first or even text first. I always end up initiating things and as much as I love planning and being in control of my schedule, it gets tiring and sad. It’s as if no one wants to be friends. I am very lucky to have an awesome team of medical professions who help me tremendously but it’d be nice to have a friend or two.
I find it very depressing that I don’t really have friends in this town still. Moving alone during a pandemic was a horrible idea in terms of MH. I know one girl and we hang out once every month or so but that’s about it. I have social anxiety along with depression and BPD (I like to call them the trifecta lmao) so it’s very hard for me to make friends. I used to try but over time I’ve learned that a lot of people don’t even reach out first or even text first. I always end up initiating things and as much as I love planning and being in control of my schedule, it gets tiring and sad. It’s as if no one wants to be friends. I am very lucky to have an awesome team of medical professions who help me tremendously but it’d be nice to have a friend or two.