Thank you for your kind words. As for treatment, it’s been a bit of a nightmare. Tried anti depressants, just made me sleep all the time and feel numb to everything. Doc adjusted the dose and still wasn’t affective. So came off them. Then tried CBT which was an utter disaster and if anything just made everything worse. Basically therapist told me I was “silly” and “immature” for thinking the way I do.@FlipFlop0706 I have no idea about dissertation except I once typed one out. I just wanted to say that you may feel a failure but how can you be when you've got this far battling depression and producing what you have? Am I a failure because I never went to University? Please don't be so hard on yourself. You do what you can. I honestly think you're incredible and I expect it's your all over perfectionism that's causing you such pain. Give your mind a break, do what you can, hand it in, shrug your shoulders and say phew. I'm assuming you're being treated for your depression.
On the meds front, I’d advise you keep trying. I’m afraid it can be a lot of trial and error. Getting through the initial few weeks of the worst side effects. Giving them a chance to work and seeing if they help more than they hurt. And going back to the start with another medication if not. I’ve been on and off lexapro for years. when I’m taking them I don’t think they’re doing much, but when I come off them I can barely survive. It’s so hard and I’m so sorry you’re struggling. Keep trying. As long as there are things to try, there’s hope of improvement.Thank you for your kind words. As for treatment, it’s been a bit of a nightmare. Tried anti depressants, just made me sleep all the time and feel numb to everything. Doc adjusted the dose and still wasn’t affective. So came off them. Then tried CBT which was an utter disaster and if anything just made everything worse. Basically therapist told me I was “silly” and “immature” for thinking the way I do.
So I stopped going after that and since then I’ve just been floating along trying to manage it myself. Sone days better than others. I’ve been considering going back to the gp as I’ve got to do something but I’m a bit scared to considering nothing worked for me before.
to all of you for your support, I feel better having put it into words. I’m going to see what I can manage over the weekend and then reassess on Monday evening if I am going to upload it or not.
Aww well done. You should be proud of yourself. I hope it's a weight lifted.Thought I’d update you all. So I managed to submit my dissertation on time this morning! I did the best I could given my mh. It’s not going to pass (that’s not me being all depressive, merely factual as I looked and its not going to meet the pass criteria) but I’m really proud of myself for just submitting given I just wanted to give it all up a few weeks ago.
I’ve tried my best and that’s all I can do. At least I’ve submitted something and it’s out of my head at the very least.
I will be interested to see how you get on with these. I only took one and slept for 24 hours!I’ve called my doctor and they’ve prescribed me Mirtazapine today. I don’t even know how I’m going to have the energy to collect it. I can’t function in the slightest.
I took the first one last night and it did make me drowsy but I woke up several times in the night unfortunately and had quite disturbed sleep so opposite of your experience.I will be interested to see how you get on with these. I only took one and slept for 24 hours!
I cried during my first session and barely recounted why i was so sad... it gets easier!I took the first one last night and it did make me drowsy but I woke up several times in the night unfortunately and had quite disturbed sleep so opposite of your experience.
I’m also starting private therapy next week. Worried about how it’ll go as I couldn’t even get through the phone call with the doctor yesterday without crying.
I managed my jobs. Today I am very meh though so who knows. Might need a day off.@flutternutter Good luck. I was Mrs Organization last week. This week the opposite. It is true though, just tackle one job at a time. Staying focused is the tricky part.
Well done though. We both know it won't last!I managed my jobs. Today I am very meh though so who knows. Might need a day off.
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